Just a thought in the dark

2003-12-19T16:11:00.000-08:00

Happy Holidays..... I think :S

I know I know, Its been quite some time since I have come here to share my thoughts.... In all honesty.... I wasn't going to write anymore... not that I didn't enjoy doing it... just that I didn't really have a whole lot to write about... now that the season of Christmas is upon us.... I think I might have a little left in me to share....

People have been asking me why I dislike christmas so much... well... I think I have enough time to try and explain my feelings about this "so called" holiday....

I think John Lennon states it best.... " So this is christmas and what have you done? another year over, a new one just begun." ... so where do I start.... so many things happen in the run of a year... does anyone remember what the spirit of christmas really is.... NO.... all it is is commercialized assholes out there trying to get you to buy the stuff they sell... " Merry Christmas.... buy our crap" ... ahaaa.... so thats what its all about... the presents and who gets the most expensive things..... well... people like me.... poor that is.... all we do is stress out over christmas.... I don't like the hustle and the bustle of all those people.... so.... just like everyother holiday out there.... BOOOO to christmas too... until people start realizing that Shopping is not the key point of the holiday and they can actually enjoy the true meaning of christmas... if there is one anymore.... I'm not going to be a holly jolly Jo-Jo this time of year and I frown at those who brag about the things they recieve... I don't believe that people have become so absorbed in this buying thing that they forgot about the celebrating and the religious end of the holiday (not saying im religious in the least) .... I just wish.... for my christmas wish.... that people will someday learn that its not the stuff they get or the stuff they have or the most popular toy this season but the love and comfort of your family, the joy of friends and food and company... but that will never happen.... so Merry Shopping to all you Christmas celebrators... may your checkbooks someday be balanced and that the gifts you purchased bring a smile to those receiving them... for me.... I'm gonna spend my holiday working with a bunch of people I love to be around and looking forward to a nice hot turkey dinner.... other than that... Seasons Greetings....

Jo dash Jo

2003-11-25T13:03:00.000-08:00

In Loving Memory

Albi
November 21, 2003

I regret to announce that Albi Rat has passed away this past Friday after a long and difficult illness. She will be greatly missed by... well... at least me... she leaves behind two children (rat 1 and rat 2) and two co existing rats (goober and gizmo)... she lived a full life of... well... chewing and stuff... she was a good rat... she was a good companion and loved people.

Rest in Peace

love Jo-Jo

2003-11-11T05:37:00.000-08:00

Dear Pets:

When I say to move, it means to go someplace else, not switch
positions with each other so there are still two of you in the
way.

The dishes with the paw print are yours and contain your
food. The other dishes are mine and contain my food. Please
note, placing a paw print in the middle of my plate and food
does not stake a claim for it becoming your food and dish, nor
do I find that aesthetically pleasing in the slightest.

The hallway was not designed by NASCAR and is not a
racetrack. Beating me to the bottom is not the object.
Tripping me doesn't help, because I fall faster than you can
run.

I cannot buy anything bigger than a king size bed. I am very
sorry about this. Do not think I will continue to sleep on the
couch to ensure your comfort.

Look at videos of dogs and cats sleeping, they can actually
curl up in a ball. It is not necessary to sleep perpendicular
to each other stretched out to the fullest extent possible. I
also know that sticking tails straight out and having tongues
hanging out the other end to maximize space used is nothing
but sarcasm.

My compact discs are not miniature Frisbees.

For the last time, there is not a secret exit from the
bathroom. If by some miracle I beat you there and manage to
get the door shut, it is not necessary to claw, whine, try to
turn the knob, or get your paw under the edge and try to pull
the door open. When I exit this room, I will come out the same
door I entered. In addition, I have been using bathrooms for
years. Canine/Feline attendance has never been necessary.

The proper order is kiss me, then go smell the other animal
or your butt. I cannot stress this enough. It would be such a
simple change for you.

In return for your following these simple rules, I have
posted the following message on our front door:

Our Rules for Non-Pet Owners Who Visit and Like to Complain
About Our Pets:

1. They live here. You don't.
2. If you don't want their hair on your clothes, stay off
the furniture.
3. I like my pet a lot better than I like most people.
4. To you, it's an animal. To me, he/she is an adopted
son/daughter who is short, hairy, walks on all fours and
doesn't speak clearly.
5. Dogs and cats are better than kids. They eat less, don't
ask for money all the time, are easier to train, usually come
when called, never drive your car, don't hang out with
drug-using friends, don't smoke or drink, don't worry about
buying the latest fashions, don't wear your clothes, don't
need a gazillion dollars for college, and if they get
pregnant, you can sell the results.

love,

jo dash jo

2003-11-05T06:45:00.000-08:00

well... I have to say that halloween put a damper on alot of things in our area... Its pretty bad when you have to sit on your step all night with your cousin to protect your mailbox from being blown off.... I have to say that I didn't do the sitting ... but my mother did... she sits on our step and watch the rest of the neighborhood having their mailboxed blown of their houses with firecrackers.... lovely ... then they built a fire in the middle of the street and threw many rocks, crab apples and eggs around the neighborhood... while this was going on... I was at our lovely Glace Bay General Hospital getting my shoulder checked... or so I thought was going to happen.... It ended up that I left work early to get my shoulder checked out because I was in an insane amount of pain for about 2 days... I arrieved there around 5:15 and left around 10:30ish.... I was not happy... I was sick and tired of waiting around and having people that came after me (non serious) being treated and sent home hours before I was even thought off... I just lost my mind and blew out of there causing quite a scene in the process...well what else was I going to do ... I was really pissed off.... so I made plans to go to the NW hospital for the next afternoon and went home for some attempt at sleep...

So I'm either starting to think that there is something wrong with me or im a serious hypochondriac... but who knows.... after the accident the symptoms improved the wandered off and weren't a hastle at all... now the past month or so with the weather getting damp I have been going crazy with different pain in different areas all the time... on hour its my shoulder the next it moves to my other shoulder oh then my leg might act up with a little neck stiffness... oh and why not my knee when I walk down stairs... and to top it all off... my doctor doesn't know jack.... aren't I lucky... shitty doctor with shitty healthcare... oh canada... can't even get some half decent doctors who at least give an effort... mine just punts me off and I see the ER doctors more because at least they show some sort of "caring" to what is going on with me... I would rather pay for my healthcare and get what I deserve insted I don't even get healthcare half the time or if I do I have to wait 6 or 7 hours to get it... at an ER that is... regular doctors just punt you off and have no idea who to refer you to to even help fix your issue... ther is no try... there is nothing... i have never been so concerened about our healthcare system so much in my entire life... my god .... if we can get to see our doctor... he doesn't even know who you are and has to go through your record to find out your name and what was done last for your lingering issue that he can't fix... I get so mad I could screem... Well... If anyone knows a dr... a good one preferabley ... who would have time to see me and help me fix my problems insted of telling me to wait 3 months then come back... I would greatly appreciate it....

signed,

dwindling CBRM Healthcare.... start worrying before its way to late.

2003-10-29T16:01:00.000-08:00

I don't really know what to say anymore

I have to say... it has bee quite some time since I have actually come here... I know I threw in the odd post but nothing to be proud of... and nothing really worth reading at that... I guess its that time again where I hit the blog rutt and can't really get in the mood... to write that is.

Its been so long since I could just sit here and really write how I feel about stuff... so much is going on and so little time to do it in.

I recently started playing a game " The Sims " .... I was totally hooked... still am I think... but to me ... its the ultamate game... just like barbies just cooler... there were a ton of expansion pacs to go with it and every pack is unique... I definately recommend this game... and I don't play many.

So halloween is coming up... scarey, spooky and meaningless... go figure... another stupid "thing" to celebrate... I'll never understand that stuff... then the next thing is Christmas... OH don't get me stated on that holiday... or so you call it... people just don't see how pathetic it is... but yet they still spend hundreds and hundreds .... and for what reason.... hmmmmmmmmm ... they don't know anymore... and if they do... Its not something they believe in... COMMERCIALIZATION has got to go... It has absolutely gotten out of hand.... they buy for every occasion.... I'm so bitter about that situation.... but what can I do... I just look like a grinch... what happened to carolers... friends and food and music... exactly... no time for that ... gotta shop... damn people have become compulsive..

well, I'm gonna go... just wanted to drop a line ... who knows... I might just have something interesting to say someday soon ... but then again... who knows.

ta ta for now... thanx for reading

Jo dash Jo

2003-10-28T09:53:00.000-08:00

I'm not American... but I know enough.... I read this... and was totally convinced.... ROBIN FOR PREZ

Leave it to Robin Williams to come up with the perfect plan... what we need now is for our UN Ambassador to stand up and repeat this message.
Robin Williams' plan..(Hard to argue with this logic!)
I see a lot of people yelling for peace but I have not heard of a plan for peace. So, here's one plan
1. The US will apologize to the world for our "interference" in their affairs, past &present. You know, Hitler, Mussolini, Tojo, Noriega, Milosovich and the rest of those 'good ole boys.' We will never "interfere" again.
2. We will withdraw our troops from all over the world, starting with Germany, South Korea and the Philippines. They don't want us there. We would station troops at our borders. No one sneaking through holes in the fence.
3. All illegal aliens have 90 days to get their affairs together and leave. We'll give them a free trip home. After 90 days the remainder will be gathered up and deported immediately, regardless of who or where they are. France would welcome them.
4. All future visitors will be thoroughly checked and limited to
90 days unless given a special permit. No one from a terrorist nation would be allowed in. If you don't like it there, change it yourself and don't hide here. Asylum would never be available to anyone. We don't need any more cab drivers or 7-11 cashiers.
5. No "students" over age 21. The older ones are the bombers. If they don't attend classes, they get a "D" and it's back home baby.
6. The US will make a strong effort to become self-sufficient energy wise. This will include developing non-polluting sources of energy but will require a temporary drilling of oil in the Alaskan wilderness. The caribou will have to cope for a while.
7. Offer Saudi Arabia and other oil producing countries $10 a barrel for their oil. If they don't like it, we go some place else. They can go somewhere else to sell their production. (About a week of the wells filling up the storage sites would be enough.)
8. If there is a famine or other natural catastrophe in the world, we will not "interfere." They can pray to Allah or whomever, for seeds, rain, cement or whatever they need. Besides most of what we give them is stolen or given to the army. The people who need it most get very little, if anything.
9. Ship the UN Headquarters to an isolated island some place. We don't need the spies and fair weather friends here. Besides, the building would make a good homeless shelter or lockup for illegal aliens.
10. All Americans must go to charm and beauty school. That way, no one can call us "Ugly Americans" any longer.
The Language we speak is ENGLISH.....learn it...or LEAVE...
Now, ain't that a winner of a plan.
"The Statue of Liberty is no longer saying 'Give me your poor, your tired, your huddled masses.' She's got a baseball bat and she's yelling, 'You want a piece of me'" -
If you agree with the above forward it to friends
AMEN TO THAT I SAY. NOW, HOW CAN WE GET ROBIN WILLIAMS TO RUN FOR PRESIDENT.

2003-10-23T12:12:00.000-07:00

Close your eyes...And go back...

Before the Internet or the MAC
Before semi automatics and crack
Before SEGA or Super Nintendo...
Way back...
I'm talking about hide-and-go seek. Red light, Green light.
Playing kickball & dodge ball until your porch light came on.
Mother May I?
Red Rover
Hula Hoops
Running through the sprinkler
Happy Meals

Wait...

Watching Saturday Morning cartoons
Fat Albert, Road Runner, Smurfs, Picture Pages, G-Force & He-Man
Wonder Woman & Super Man Underoos
Playing Dukes of Hazard
Catching lightning bugs in a jar
Christmas morning...
Your first day of school
Bedtime Prayers and Goodnight Kisses
Climbing trees
Getting an Ice Cream off the Ice Cream Truck
A million mosquito bites and sticky fingers
Jumping down the steps
Jumping on the bed
Pillow fights
Running 'til you were out of breath
Laughing so hard that your stomach hurt
Being tired from playing...
Your first crush...
Rainy days at school meant playing "Heads up 7Up" in the class room.
Remember that?

I'm not finished yet...

Kool-aid was the drink of summer
Toting your friends on your handle bars
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school
Class Field Trips
When nearly everyone's Mom was at home when the kids got there.
When a quarter seemed like a fair allowance, and another quarter a
miracle.

When any parent could discipline any kid, or feed him or use him to
carry groceries, and nobody, not even the kid, thought a thing of it.

When your parents took you to McDonalds and you were so cool.
When being sent to the principal's office was nothing compared to the
fate that awaited a misbehaving student at home.

Basically, we were in fear for our lives but it wasn't because of
drive-by shootings, drugs, gangs, etc. Our parents and grandparents
were a much bigger threat! And some of us are still afraid of them!!!

Didn't that feel good, just to go back and say, "Yeah, I remember that!"

There's nothing like the good old days! They were good then and
they're good now when we think about them.

Share some of these thoughts with a friend who can relate, then share
it with someone that missed out on them. I want to go back to the time
when...

Decisions were made by going "eeny-meeny-miney-mo"
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming, "do over!"
"Race issue"; meant arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was the banker in "Monopoly"
Catching the fireflies could happily occupy an entire evening.
It wasn't odd to have two or three "best" friends.
Being old, referred to anyone over 20.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom.
Scrapes and bruises were kissed and made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enough to ride the "big people"
rides at the amusement park.

Getting a foot of snow was a dream come true.

Abilities were discovered because of a "double-dog-dare"
Spinning around, getting dizzy and falling down was cause for giggles.
The worst embarrassment was being picked last for a team.
Water balloons were the ultimate, ultimate weapon.
Older siblings were the worst tormentors, but also the fiercest
protectors.

2003-10-20T09:59:00.000-07:00

A new Monday Feature......

Poetry and other fun stuff By Jezzi

Joda's Ode to Quality Feedbacks

There once was a girl named Joda,
Whose name surprisingly rhymes with Yoda,
She fedback qualities 'till she was blue in the face,
Zero after Zero what a disgrace.
Please verify the version of software is 8. (had to change this line for security purposes ... lol )
Oh No! He didn't, it's too late!
Don't forget empathy and willingness to assist,
Oh no! Watch out Joda is getting pissed.
She doesn't like giving out Zeros,
She wants you to be her quality hero!
So don't forget to give her your all!
And get a 31 on every call!

with love,
Jezzi

................... HA HA.... I love my Monday morning poetry and stuff from my good pal Jezzi.....

Ps... the Joda thing.... that has to do with an agent at work that thinks my name is Joda and not Jo-Jo...

oh well... more to come...

later

Jo dash da

2003-10-18T12:23:00.000-07:00

Subject:
What I've Learned As I've Matured...
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jack asses.
I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
I've learned that it is not what you wear, it is how you take it off.
I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.
I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.
I've learned that ex's are like fungus, and keep coming back.
I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.
I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.
I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.
I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important
ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent.

just another good email.... lovem......

Jo dash Jo

2003-10-17T14:14:00.000-07:00

Why its good to be a Woman.
1. We got off the Titanic first.
2. We can scare male bosses with the mysterious gynecological disorder excuses.
3. Taxis stop for us.
4. We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
5. No fashion faux pas we make, could ever rival the Speedo.
6. We don't have to pass gas to amuse ourselves.
7. If we forget to shave, no one has to know.
8. We can congratulate our teammate without ever touching her rear end.
9. We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
10. We have the ability to dress ourselves.
11. We can talk to the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.
12. If we marry someone 20 years younger, we are aware that we will look like an idiot.
13. We will never regret piercing our ears.
14. There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
15. We can make comments about how silly men are in their presence because they aren't listening anyway.

2003-10-17T08:06:00.000-07:00

THIS IS WHAT MY FUCKING JOB HAS GOTTEN ME!!

lost a relationship
lost time... to none at all
lost patience
lost my best friend
lost my mind

what the fuck is gonna go now... thank god they lock the windows here cause today would be a day that jumping looks too good...

... kill me

Jo dash Jo

2003-10-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

Jezzi Says:

"Gotta Be KB! "

2003-10-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

... I've decided to take a break ...

It doesn't seem that I have any time anymore... this shift stinks... Its not the only thing eating up my time... but thats besides the point. I need things to be back on track... back on a schedule... back doing the things that keep me happy...

things I would do if I had the time...

visit with my godson... I definately DON"T see him enough thats for sure... I'm gonna miss out on the fun stuff.

go for a 3 hour walk before it gets too cold... I hate the cold.. more than anything... even the slightest chill has me uncomfortable... I just wanna take in the last bit before I'm cut off for a few months.

spend time with my pets... I have a few... a cat that dissowned me, a kitten I barely know and two new additions to my rats... man I'm such a bad person... must find time for them.

spend some quality time with my MoM... I miss her alot... well spending time with her... the little bit of time we had spent was spent well.

take up a hobby... maybe rug making ... or wilderness survival... whatever really, I'm open to new things.

meet someone new everyday... I haven't met a new person in about a month... and that is not like me at all... its crazy.

read a book I like... and the whole damn thingI will start a book then just put it away... or fall asleep... I need to get some more learneage in me..

take care of myself... spend time on me... getting back my schedule and keeping in line... working out and personal care... I'm such a slacker..

learn a dozen new songs a day... singing and playing... why couldn't I... I could.. just don't... again... SLACKER... sigh

I will never learn... I'm so easily led... and the easy way... oh yeah.. thats my way... So here I sit with chicken in hand... swearing to change and to do a bunch of stuff I know that I wont do ... but its the thought that counts right... or so they say...

So will I just keep making empty promises to myself or will I really straighten up and start doing something about it... only time will tell I guess... just wait and see.

jo dash jo

2003-10-14T14:47:00.000-07:00

...... going through the email once again

i am such an email pack rat... I save everything .... so here is one that kinda suits my moods lately... and its from my best friend Steve... and dated back to last January... :S.. h aha... i suck... but here goes....

When I was a kid adults used to bore me to tears with
their tedious diatribes about how hard things were when
they were growing up; what with walking twenty-five miles
to school every morning uphill both ways through
year 'round blizzards carrying their younger siblings
on their backs to their one-room schoolhouse where they
maintained a straight-A average despite their full-time
after-school job at the local textile mill where they worked
for 35 cents an hour just to help keep their family from
starving to death!

And I remember promising myself that when I grew up
there was no way in hell I was going to lay a bunch of
crap like that on kids about how hard I had it and how
easy they've got it!

But....

Now that I've reached the ripe old age of twenty-nine,
I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today.
You've got it so fuckin' easy!

I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in freakin
Utopia! And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know
how good you've got it!

I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The
Internet--we wanted to know something, we had to go
to the damn library and look it up ourselves!

And there was no email! We had to actually write
somebody a letter--with a pen!--and then you had
to walk all the way across the street and put it in
the fuckin' mailbox and it would take like a week to
get there!

And there were no MP3s or Napsters! You wanted to
steal music, you had to go to the damn record
store and shoplift it yourself!

Or we had to wait around all day to tape it off the
radio and the DJ'd usually talk over the beginning and
fuck it all up!

You want to hear about hardship? You couldn't just
download porn! You had to bribe some homeless
dude to buy you a copy of "Hustler" at the 7-11! It was
either that or jackoff to the lingerie section of the JC
Penney catalog! Those were your options!

We didn't have fancy shit like Call Waiting! If you
were on the phone and somebody else called they
got a busy signal!

And we didn't have fancy Caller ID Boxes either!
When the phone rang, you had no idea who it was
it could be your boss, your mom, a collections agent,
your drug dealer, you didn't know!!! You just had to
pick it up and take your chances, mister!

And we didn't have any fancy Sony Playstation videogames
with high-resolution 3-D graphics! We had the Atari 2600!
With games like "Space Invaders" and "Asteroids" and the
graphics sucked! Your guy was a little square! We had
to use our imagination! And there were no multiple levels
or screens, it was just one screen forever! And you could
never win, the game just kept getting harder and faster
until you died! Just like LIFE!

When you went to the movie theater there no such thing
as stadium seating! All the seats were the same height!
A tall guy sat in front of you, you were screwed!

And sure, we had cable television, but back then that
was only like 20 channels and there was no onscreen
menu! You had to use a little book called a TV Guide
to find out what was on!

And there was no Cartoon Network! You could only get
cartoons on Saturday morning... ...D'ya hear what the
fuck I'm saying!?! We had to wait ALL WEEK, you spoiled
little bastards!

That's exactly what I'm talking about! You kids today have
got it too easy. You're spoiled, I swear to God! You guys
wouldn't last five minutes back in 1984!

so thats that..... and I say a big YEAH to that one... lol... have a good day... and keep on keepin on...

Jo dash jo

2003-10-10T09:21:00.000-07:00

Bash the Rich ... Part II

I hate politics... and everything about it... I guess because I don't care... WELL ...

I had an appointment with Mr Lawyer today... I have been meeting with him periodically to discuss my progress and to keep the other insurance companies up to date on how my condition is doing... He wrote some notes and both decided that I will go back to my doctor and demand something done for my hip or some answers on how long it will be until I should be fully recovered (should have been 6 months) ... We got to talking about the Insurance Legislation that the goverment are talking about passing... now get this... you get in a car accident... you pay alot of money for insurance... this legislation is passed and in the accident you break your leg... lets say you do physiothereapy and have a couple of surgeries on it... within 3 years your recovered... no signs of permanent dammage but those 3 years had flipped your life upside down... since this law is passed the insurance company is paying you $2500 for pain and suffering... $2500 ... thats just crazy... suffing for 3 years ... fighting to get back into good physical condition and the Insurance company slaps you in the face... TERRIBLE... I dred to see the day this happens...

We were talking about Soft Tissue dammage and how it is actually more painful and more stressful than a broken bone or alot of other minor injuries caused in accidents... now I can speak for that... I was in agony for at least 3 months after the accident ... where I HAD to move and go to physio where I was bent out of shape in hope that the pain will ease up enough to get through the day... now if an insurance offered me $2500 for my pain and that was it... well... I'd be flippin... sooooo BOOOOOOOOOOO on all these GD Insurance companies... if they didn't want to play out claims then they shouldn't have been in business... dammit what are you paying them for... :S .. thats what I thought....

I know that I'm sick and tired of giving my money away... I work to pay ... I pay for what????? ... someday we might open our eyes and realize that enough is enough... the rich are only getting richer and the poor ... well you already know what we are doing.... paying for the rich... IT MAKES ME SO MAD I WANNA SCREAM.... why do we keep giving them our money... like we have lots to throw away... WHY DONT THEY START PAYING US TO LISTEN TO THEIR MUSIC... WHY DON'T THEY PAY US TO LISTEN TO OUR MUSIC... IM SORRY BUT I'D RIP OUT ALL MY FINGERNAILS AND DIP THEM IN JAVEX BEFORE I WILLINGLY HAND OVER MY MONEY TO ANY RICH PERSON *THINKING* ... NOW THEY REALLY THINK THIS.... THEY THEY WORKED HARD FOR IT... OH SPARE ME... IF I HAD THE MONEY I WOULD LOOK AS GOOD... IF I HAD THE MONEY I WOULD SOUND AS GOOD... PLEASE DON'T SIT THERE AND TELL ME THAT WHAT THEY DO IS HARD AND THAT THEY DESERVE THE MONEY... WHAT THEY DESERVE IS A KICK IN THE ASS AND A VOTE OFF THE ISLAND... THERE ARE MILLIONS OF STRUGGLING PEOPLE IN THE WORLD AND THERE THEY SIT COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW BAD THEY HAVE IT... I COULD SCREAM... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... ... JUST GET RID OF THEM... ALL OF THEM... I CAN'T SEE ANY OF THEM MAKE A DIFFERENCE THEY HOARD THEIR MONEY AND PRETEND THEY CARE... oPRAH AND HER TAX WRITE OFFS... SHE LOOKS SO CARING... YEAH SHE'S AN ACTOR... SHE REALLY CARES.. HA HA... SHE DOES WHAT SHE DOES SO SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO PAY ... DIRTY DIRTY RICH PEOPLE... THEY ARE ALL GOING TO HELL... THEY DON'T CARE... THEY DON'T WORK HARD... THEY JUST DON'T MATTER.. BUT YOU STILL GIVE THEM YOUR MONEY... WELL NOT ME... NOT ANYMORE... ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.. AND THEY GOTTA GO... THEY DO NOT NEED THE MONEY THEY HAVE ... THEY DON'T EVEN DESERVE A SMALL AMOUNT ... THE DESERVE A KICK IN THE ASS AND PUT TO WORK... THIS SUBJECT MAKES ME SOOOOOO ANGRY ... ANGRY THAT NO ONE REALIZES WHAT THEY ARE DOING... ITS SOO SAD... WELL ... I'M SURE I WILL RANT ABOUT THIS AGAIN... ITS KINDA LIKE MY TOP RANT LATELY...

oH YEAH... I'M GETTING A NEW PET TODAY... DELIVERED BY HAND FROM TRURO... MY HAIRLESS RAT WILL BE IN MY POSSESION LATER THIS EVENING... I'M SO EXCITED...

there is a little idea of what the little guys looks like...

WELL... HAVE FUN AND STOP GIVING THE RICH YOUR MONEY... ITS YOURS... KEEP IT... THEY DON'T NEED IT... JUST KICK THEM IN THE ARSE... THATS ALL THEY DESERVE.

2003-10-06T09:55:00.000-07:00

A song I had just jotted down ... Ode to a pen holder... a gift from a friend....

(sung to the air of "Oh Christmas Tree"...)

Oh Pen holder

Ohhhhhh Pen Holder, Oh pen holder, you hold my pens so proudly
Oh pen holder, oh pen holderyou hold my pens so proudly
Each day you hold my pens for me, incase I might need 2 or 3.
Ohhhhhh Pen Holder, Oh pen holder, you hold my pens so proudly

Oh pen holder, oh pen holder, you were a gift from Cara.
Oh pen holder, oh pen holder, you were a gift from Cara.
I didn't know what I would do, my pens were scattered two by two,
Oh pen holder, oh pen holder, you were a gift from Cara.

The plastic ones they aren't as good, your made so strong with glue and wood
Oh pen holder, oh pen holder, you hold my pens so proudly.

Each day you hold my pens for me, incase I might need 2 or 3.
ooooooohhh pen holder, oh pen holder you were a gift from Cara.

..... lovely .... I might just record it...

Jo dash Jo

PS... I'm in a posting mood today... so I'm gonna post everything.... :) .... random stuff throughout the day... just for fun.... cheers.

2003-10-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

I wanted to add my newest Poem about me... written by my friend Jezzi..

How Jo-Jo lost her Mo-Jo, A Poem for Jo-Jo,

There once was a girl named Jo-Jo,
Who suddenly lost her Mo-Jo,
She searched for it night & day,
She lost hope that she'd find it so she moved a way,
She traveled by plane,
Then traveled by train,
She landed in France
And did the Car-Dance,
'Cause Jo-Jo found her Mo-Jo.

Creative writing I love it... ha ha

thanx Jezzi

2003-10-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

just a thought...

It doesn't seem people have the time anymore... not for anything... I know I don't... and I just work at a call center... Picture all the people married to their jobs... no time for anything but their jobs... scary thought... you spend your life working till you die... no time to enjoy life... unless its on a vacation or your rich... rich people suck and I think I hate every single one of them... because we aren't rich we must pay... what do we pay with besides money... our lives... thats even scarier... the rich pay their way out and enjoy life the way it should be and we work... we work to pay... we are lucky we have enough to make ends meet let alone any extra for anything... the rich drain us of our money and enjoy life... I don't want to work for anyone else besides myself... but thats not the case... they expect us to be able to go out and get an education to get a good job... oh yea... now I'm stuck paying a student loan for the next 20 years so I wont have to work to pay them... lovely... I love the goverment and banks and credit card companies and anyone else that likes to hold you in their debt...

once again my expression of my hatred towards money and the power it posesses and how it helps us waste our lives away ... errrrr ... booo to all the others too ...

Jo dash Jos rant of the week

(these things are great... )

2003-10-03T13:05:00.000-07:00

You are Everything To Somebody
Right now at this very minute-----------

someone
is very proud of you

someone
is thinking of you

someone
cares about you

someone
misses you

someone
wants to talk to you

someone
wants to be with you

someone
hopes you aren't in trouble

someone
is thankful for the support you have
provided

someone
wants to hold your hand

someone
hopes everything turns out all right

someone
wants you to be happy

someone
wants you to find them

someone
is celebrating your successes

someone
wants to give you a gift

someone
think you ARE a gift

someone
hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

someone
wants to hug you

someone
loves you

someone
wants to lavish you with small gifts

someone
admires your strength

someone
is thinking of you and smiling

someone
wants to be your shoulder to cry on

someone
wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

someone
thinks the world of you

someone
wants to protect you

someone
would do anything for you

someone
wants to be forgiven

someone
is grateful for your forgiveness

someone
wants to laugh with you about old times

someone
remembers you and wishes you were there

someone
is praising God for you

someone
needs to know that your love is unconditional

somebody
values your advice

someone
wants to tell you how much they care

someone
wants to stay up watching old movies with
you

someone
wants to share their dreams with you

someone
wants to hold you in their arms

someone
wants YOU to hold them in your arms

someone
treasures your spirit

someone
wishes they could STOP time because of
you

someone
praises God for your friendship and love

someone
can't wait to see you

someone
wishes that things didn't have to change

someone
loves you for who you are

someone
loves the way you make them feel

someone
wants to be with you

someone
is hoping they can grow old with you

someone
hears a song that reminds them of you

someone
wants you to know they are there for you

someone
is glad that you're their friend

someone
wants to be your friend

someone
stayed up all night thinking about you

someone
is alive because of you

someone
is remorseful after losing your
friendship

someone
is wishing that you would notice them

someone
wants to get to know you better

someone
believes that you are their soul mate

someone
wants to be near you

someone
misses your guidance and advice

someone
values your guidance and advice

someone
has faith in you

someone
trusts you

someone
needs your support

someone
needs you to have faith in them

someone
needs you to let them be your friend

someone
will cry when they read this

I really loved this one.... makes you feel all warm inside... sniff.... well... till next time...

jo dash jo

2003-09-29T10:24:00.000-07:00

Addictions eh

We are all plagued with one... or more than one... the worse thing about addictions is that you don't believe they are addictions until its too late... or until you have hit rock bottom... and other times you know your have one.. but right at that time.. it isn't importanat to acknowledge them .. or it...

I was just introduced to a new blog his addiction was carbs... oh how we love them... evil evil things... tasty and quick.. what more could you want... empty calories and added weight... but yet so quick... People wonder why weight gain is so easy but when you really thing about it... how much time do we have to make a fresh meal with actual real food... oh the novelty of fast food... I'm sorry but your leaner, more healthier menu is really appitizing compared to that big mac combo or anyother grease filled meal on the menu... yeah just give me a tossed salad and a baked potato... ummm I think not... We are definately weak people... I would love to have a home cooked meal... healthy and hot... but the time is not realistic... all I get time for is to either open a can of soup or make a sandwich... OR... we could run to McDonalds for a quicker meal... so sad... but we know we all do it... once and a while is ok but how often do we eat out... do we even eat at home anymore.

Life is so much harder with take out... don't get me wrong they promise you a hot meal in little to no time... but what we eat is our own choice... man do we make bad ones...

I had recently been getting on track myself... changing how I eat (trying rather) and trying to take in only what I burn off... its not easy... I have to say the hardest thing I achieved was my exercise... getting around was difficult and discouraging at first and I really had to push... but much to my surprise ... it got easier...

Now I am still in an endless battle... I could give in anytime and end up back where I was a few years ago... or even a few months ago... its not hard to get sidetracked and its even easier to just give up... but all you need is a little self control and dicipline and you can do anything... priorities are good and when you write them down it makes the clearer... I knew that I wanted to lose weight all my life but when I finally put it down on paper I realized how badly I wanted it... and come hell or high water I was going to get it dammit....

So I have another demon to get rid of... smoking... but don't get me started on this one... I'm still really pissed... So all of a sudden the past few years the goverment decided that smoking was bad and caused cancer... hmmmm insted of setting up programs to help people with their addictions the goverment decided to tax the hell out of cigarettes in hope that we would stop... UM NO... what they just did was make us put something else on hold... take from something else which definatly isn't helping thats for sure... my god people... either ban them for good or let the people smoke... give them some programs and some patches or something... its so sad... idiots run the country... god help us all..

so that was my venting for today... what shall come tomorrow ... who knows...

regards,

Jo dash Jo

2003-09-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

Oh what a Night!

So I have to say that Friday night was a blast... the party at Host and Hostess was a fantastic time... it was one of those partys that just get EVERYONE together... there was tons of pictures taken and lots of music and drink... well myself... had other Ideas...

~FLASHBACK~

It started out as a normal night.... meet and greet :)

Alot of the people there I haden't seen in a long time and was a definate joy to see them again... :) the hostess was very gracious and offered me a drink ... of course I accepted....

hmmmm.... gladiator eh.... not bad.... a little while passes and the after effects weren't pretty... shrimp became my play thing ... and the idea I came up... I think only I could...

So I seeked out the shrimp ring that was placed in the kitchen...

I did spend some time with the shrimp... talked to it ... swam it around outside the fishtank... fishtank eh... then I thought more...

I needed more tools.... what could I use.... so darted to the hostess and asked for some string... "Will thread do"... oh yes... thread will do just fine...

I darted into the kitchen to find myself a straw... aha... there it was .... and the last one left.... I shall use this to its full abiltiy I thought....

I grabed the straw and into the room Fled.... I tied the string around the shimp and put the string through the straw... oh the ideas I had....

shrimp makes good bait.... or so I'm told...

goldfish aren't that smart ... they will take him in like one of their own...

Oh yes... HERE FISHY FISHY FISHY..... What? .. It worked on Sesame Street..

So not long after that I surely went home... too much excitement for one night... I wanted to thank the host and hostess for a night well enjoyed... well by me and ... well a shrimp thats for sure... thanx guys...

and to top it all off... we got a little group pick... a few were missing because of an early exit...

regards,

Jo dash Jo

2003-09-25T13:09:00.000-07:00

how some peoples pain is definatly others pleasure....

How many times have you seen someone fall and HADDEN"T laughed... America's Funniest home videos and Funniest people are great examples of this... we will watch time and time again .. we laugh our asses off and yes ... I'm guilty too... I have to say America's Funnies Home videos was one of my all time favorite shows... I was a die hard... Nothing did I enjoy more then a great fall or a whack... oh joy... man we are some sick people...

I remember back a few years... Me and two friends were just sitting around chatting... It got on the topics of wierd stuff people could do... Like the Guiness Book... one of my friends knew that I could blow air out my eyes... I know its wierd but hey... I can do it... sooooooo ... I was instant entertainment... since we are all bored... they decide to throw the idea that I should be able to squirt a liquid out also... I know it sounds gross... but to me it was a challange... so sure... they wanted me to start with milk... but I thought I should start with water... so we all jaunt off to my bathroom where I will attempt this feat... dum dum dum.... I wasn't really sure on how to attempt this... how do I get the water to squirt out my eyes... hmmmm... we all thought about different ways but I think the winner was "just suck it up your nose." ... Hey ... sounds logical enough to me... but before I dare to even try this I needed to make sure that if I choak or anything that they will help me... OH SURE they said... no worries... I have back up... so ... i fill up the sink... and while the two of them are at my side I lower my head into the water and start to sniff... the only think I could think of... well... the choaking starts and the laughter begins... they are laughing to kill themselves, one collapses to the floor and the other falls in the tub... while im standing there choaking on the water that I had just put up my nose... GREAT... thanx guys... alot of help you are... so dare I say that I had entertained them ... now I do know that NO... I cannot squirt a liquid out my eyes... I will just stick to air... and it has been so many years since I attempted this that I don't think I still can... bad experiences tend to do that to a person... Just goes to show you ... pain is pleasure...

That will just learn you the next time you laugh... well not really... the laughter breaks the tension... takes your mind of the foolish act that had just occured... I know when I fall... which happens alot (maybe an inner ear issue, or beer... never figured that out yet)... I laugh my ass off... takes the edge off... I have always been a clutz... never steady on my feet... I trip over thin air... all the time...

So... the next time you see someone fall... just burst out laughing ... it will make them feel better... :oD

later

...damn people are cruel... some people are just plain desperate for a laugh.

2003-09-24T08:06:00.000-07:00

Teenagers, young adults, youth, minors

whatever way you say it... it is still the most fucked up time of a persons life... well of course besides menopause but lets not talk about that... So I remember been between the ages of 12 to 16 ... not a good time... don't think I don't understand what your going through cause man have I been there... and don't think that your the only one... cause your not... around this age I find they start to branch off into their groups... trying to find their "place" in the social environment... so... when I was between these ages we slacked off... yet still went to school and graduated... and if we didn't ... man were we gonna get it... our parents would put the fear of god in us... and thats what kept us in line... why didn't I sneak out... because I knew... that my mom would some how use her supermom ability and know where I was and kick my ass... mind you she never put a hand on me... but all she had to do was look at me... and that was it... I was instantly behaved... just incase of "what" she could do... NOT TODAY DAMMIT... jezzus these kids are gone wild... nothing controls them ... they go off in their half crazy tangents... and have no guidence or direction... no dicipline... drop out of school... just free bodies to decide on their own.... now I'm definatly not saying kids can't decide... but really WHO can decide alone... and how sure are you of these decisions you make... everyone needs advice and guidance... and who better to give it but people who did and went through the exact same things they are... but for some reason we just dont "understand" ... ok.. sure...

My neighborhood is over run with young people of all ages and groups... its pretty interesting to see... I'm kinda like the veteran of the neighborhood... but one generation... one gone bad.... we were ok... the ones below us were pretty good but the ones after that are just losing their minds... the younger ones are pretty good too... but just the blacksheep.... the ages of 12 to 16 ... odd... now these kids aren't the worse I have seen .... they are disrespectful and and think they just know all the answers and don't need help and think yadda yadda yadda... I think they just need to slow down... people aren't out to get them... SCHOOL ISN"T BAD... learning IS the best thing you could ever do... learn what you love.. it makes it easier ... now the neighborhood is all restless because of these kids... parents don't do anything...Kids are causing shit ... To me ... the kids are bored... they don't keep occupied anymore... give them something to do for a few hours....chores.. oh yeah.. maybe learn stuff..like in school... whats that... that now considered child abuse or something... man... who can tell me even at my age that if you even swore in your house your mother didn't grap the slipper ... thats what I thought... you grab the slipper now and the kid be slapping a peace bond on you and kicking you outta the house.... its crazy... I think there is nothing wrong with a wack... my god ... if it will smack some sence into some of the kids out there ... it would be worth a shot... I read that more and more parents are "AFRAID" of their kids... now when did the roles change.... ummmm.... thats just ain't right.... hell if they can bring you in the world they should have the power to take you out .... don't disrespect your momma.... that just ain't right either... she'd whoop you...!!! But thats my opinion.

I would really like to hear others opinions on the adolesence of today... Is it a problem? ... Is it out of control?... How do you think we fix it and who is to blame??? ....

Just a thought in the dark

2003-09-23T11:00:00.000-07:00

I LOVE E-MAIL ... well funny or true ones that is....

I was going through my inbox today and came across a few that I wanted to share.... so here we go... I will start off light...

What is a Cape Bretoner?

To the uninitiated, the obvious answer would be, "Someone that was born in Cape Breton, of course." And that answer, of course, is wrong.

Several things go into the makeup(?) of a Cape Bretoner, or "Caper", that make this person quite unique. Here are some of the more salient points:

1: Capers have an acute sense of direction.

This sense of direction is somewhat different than that of most people. Only a Caper can go "down" north.."out" west, or "up" to Halifax.(Halifax, of course, is south of Cape Breton)
A Caper cannot go east..if it were to be attempted, the immediate result would be that he/she would get wet, since only the ocean lies east of Cape Breton.

2: Capers ALWAYS call each other by a nickname.

This nickname can be a derivative of the person's original name, or something completely different. For example, someone named Robert could be called Bobby, or maybe Stretch, Stinky, Ace, or Snake. If someone comes to Cape Breton, and plans to stay for a while, they must immediately start using a nickname. If they don't have one, one will be appointed for them in short order.

3: Capers always use clothesprops.

No, a clothesprop isn't something a wardrobe assistant uses to help in the dressing of a person on stage or screen. It's a long skinny stick, approximately ten feet in length, used to hold up the clothesline after all the wash has been hung out. To the best of everybody's knowledge, clothesprops are a Cape Breton invention.

4: Capers LOVE to party.

The traditional house party, or "ceilidh"(pronounced kay-lee) as it's called in Gaelic, is a Cape Breton staple. Parties have been known to go on for days, with people leaving and coming on a regular basis. Actually, at the end of a party, the guests that are still there usually aren't the ones that were there in the beginning..those folks have left to go to work, school, etc. Asking who or what the party was for will generate a confused look, as if to say, "What do you mean? You have to have a REASON to party?"

5: Capers always wear baseball caps.

This is a truism, but nobody knows why it is so. Men and women alike follow this tradition..and the hat of choice is the one with "Cat Diesel Power" emblazoned across the front in bright yellow letters.

6: Capers despise the "mayflowers".

"Mayflower" is a secret code word for "clamper." "Clamper" is a secret code word for drift ice. This ice usually arrives in February or March, and delays the onset of summer. As a result of this phenomenon, the spring season is quite short in Cape Breton. Last year in Cape Breton, spring fell on a Thursday.

7: Capers speak in tongues.

At least, that's what the mainlanders will tell you. There's a very peculiar way of communicating here, referred to by some as "Capebretonese". For example, if you want to talk this language, you must omit the ubiquitous "eh" used by almost all other Canadians, and replace it with "b'ye". "Bye" is a gender neutral term, and can be used when speaking of males or females. Catch me drift, b'ye?

8: Capers are Clannish.

Not in a bad way. If you're meeting someone here for the first time, after the perfunctory "How's she goin', b'ye?" you will immediately be asked, "Whats yer father's name?" Geneology seems to be an important factor in the life of most Capers, and a slight dig into the past usually finds a link with most families hereabouts. We've been described as being like "Sable Island ponies"..everybody is related to everybody else.

9: Capers all share a favorite colour..and that colour is "plaid."

10: Capers all play an obscure card game called "Tarabish."
(Pronounced, "TAR-bish")

This is a somewhat difficult game to master, and it is not too unlike 45's, or hearts. One way to be sure that people are actually playing tarabish is to listen to them while they're playing..and if they periodically shout out "Bella!!" you know the game is tarabish. Tarabish was invented in the middle east and brought here by immigrants, and the world championships are played here every year.

And, last but not least,

11: Capers LOVE to laugh..especially at themselves.

This is the only paragraph on this whole page that isn't "tongue-in-cheek." Capers have a wonderful sense of humour, can tell a joke with the best of them, and tend to take life not too seriously.

just for the folks that don't know where Cape Breton is.... same as the pic above... just alot more East :D

God I love this Island.... what else could I ask for... well yeah I could think of a few things.. but when you live here... It just don't matter. :D ...

cheers bye,

2003-09-22T15:38:00.000-07:00

I'M GLAD YOU ARE IN MY DASH---
I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning...to the end.
He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.
( 1934-1998)
For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not, how much we own;
The cars...the house...the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard...
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile..
Remembering that this special dash
May last only a little while.
So, when your eulogy's being read
With your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

How true this is... no matter how we look at it the dash, so to speak is the most important part... so little... yet so significant... enjoy it and thanx for being in MY dash ...

Jo dash Jo

PS.. you don't want to end up with something like .........

............... this do you???? ... nuff said

2003-09-18T15:54:00.000-07:00

Did you ever hold back what you really wanted to say just because it was "inappropriate"? .... Did you ever hold yourself back from saying something just because you know that person can't handle constructive critisism? ... why is it that people take what other people say to heart... so seriously .... does their opinion really matter to you?... and should it? .... perhaps it does.... we try to impress.... sometimes we actually change who we are just so we can get that drop of respect or just to get that person that you really like to look in your direction.... hmmmm ... just doesn't sound right to me.... why the hell would you wanna be around someone that didn't like you before you changes... your still you.... just battling to get out... dying to be yourself ... but yet... you cannot... because the certain people you hang out with just wouldn't accept it.... BOOOO to that....

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist while asking
for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the
fuck is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask
where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to
search the entire room for the tv remote because they
refuse to walk to the tv and change the channel
manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your
cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is a cake
if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you
look". Of course it is.
Why the fuck would you keep looking after you've
found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?
Gonna Kick their ass!

5. When people say while watching a film "did you
see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the
cinema and stare at the fucking floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"....
Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is
it?
If it's new, then there has never been anything
before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have
been something before it.

8. When people say "life is short". What the
fuck?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever
fucking
does!!
What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone
asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I
be standing here, dumbass?

YADDA YADDA YADDA

2003-09-16T16:39:00.000-07:00

The VOICE OF HUNTER S. THOMPSON -- a.k.a. RAOUL DUKE:

DUKE (V/O)
We were somewhere around Barstow on
the edge of the desert when the
drugs began to take hold.

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

A red Chevy convertible -- THE RED SHARK -- wipes the

black
screen.

EXT. ON THE ROAD TO LAS VEGAS - DAY

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

THE RED SHARK races down the desert highway at a

hundred
miles an hour. THE STONES' "Sympathy For the Devil"

blares.

AT THE WHEEL

STRANGELY STILL AND TENSE, RAOUL DUKE DRIVES --

SKELETAL,
BEER IN HAND -- STARES STRAIGHT AHEAD.

BESIDE HIM, FACE TURNED TO THE SUN, EYES CLOSED BEHIND
WRAPAROUND SPANISH SUNGLASSES, IS HIS SWARTHY AND

UNNERVINGLY
UNPREDICTABLE ATTORNEY, DR. GONZO.

The music pounds DUKE stares straight ahead. GONZO

froths
up a can of beer - uses it as shaving foam.

DUKE (V/O)
I remember saying something like:
"I feel a bit lightheaded. Maybe
you should drive..."

These are the first few lines of one of my all time favorite movies... this and numerous others like....

I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?
Renton ~ Trainspotting (another favorite)

I really love watching movies that are drug related... the most recent I have seen is called SPUN... a movie based on crystal meth... like crack is to cocaine... crystal meth is to speed... very informative and very realistic... I find the characters that were cast in this movie were perfectly played...

Check it out !!!.... I do have better things to blog about but I don't have the time to rant about it...

catcha later...

2003-09-10T17:06:00.000-07:00

ODE TO STEVE

TWO LITTLE DICKIE-BIRDS

Two little dickie-birds,
Sitting on a wall,
One named peter,
The other named Paul,
Fly away, Peter!
Fly away, Paul!
Come back, Peter!
Come back, Paul!

lol..... there will be an update soon. ;o)

2003-09-04T14:34:00.000-07:00

hmmmmmmm..... beat or words... rhythm or melody.... what is it about songs that we love so much... I know I like to hum melodies... some songs, their words are what stick in my head... others... a great guitar solo or some killer bass line.... but what is it that attracts us....

Hook by Blues Traveler got me wondering.... I really like that song... first time I heard it.... great beat ... nice rhythm... he can sing... then ... the person got me to listen to the song again and listen to the words this time.... utter shock... I couldn't believe it.... first lines.... (Download and listen to the song before you read the lyrics and you will know what I mean.

Hook
Music & Lyrics: John Popper

It doesn't matter what I say
So long as I sing with inflection
That makes you feel that I'll convey
Some inner truth of vast reflection
But I've said nothing so far
And I can keep it up for as long as it takes
And it don't matter who you are
If I'm doing my job then it's your resolve that breaks

~Chorus~
Because the hook brings you back
I ain't tellin' you no lie
The hook brings you back
On that you can rely

weird.... the song talks pretty poorly about how gullible people are and how it doesn't really matter what he says in his song cause no one is listening anyway... the words don't matter eh.... as long as he sounds good and he sings like he really means it... I agree.... its not always the words and its not always the music ... both is a bonus but what’s a good worded song without a good band to back them up... its all about the music ... you could hum along and sound really good throw a few power words in there and tada.... a best seller...

oh well... music is music ... I like this song... obviously not because of the words he sings but definitely the way he sings them ... and the beat of course.... so just remember ... sing with inflection and all will be good... but only if you can carry a tune in the first place that is....

Ciao

2003-09-02T09:01:00.000-07:00

Goodbye fair summer ... *sniff*

Where the hell did the summer go and tell me when it started.... this was not a summer.... it was a little warm.... heat wave.... now its pant season again.... WTF... Cape Breton better start giving some half decent weather or I'm just going to have to migrate to a warmer climate. I can't believe the temperature drop recently... from shorts and fans to pants and blankets... weird.... I promised last year after the winter we had that I will be in a warmer climate for this winter.... I'm assuming I lied because I'm still here.... yuck...

Always take time out to appreciate the little things in life... The things we take advantage of.... question - If you had no running water, would you be able to function normally.... NO... it would interfere with your everyday life immensely ... but ... we don't take notice ... its a luxury but we classify it as a necessity... I'm sure we will all survive fine without it... it would just take some adjusting.... but yes... we would survive.... and what about electricity... OH DEAR GOD.... picture not having it.... would life cease as we know it.... NO.... we would survive... just once again we would have to adjust... and adjusting takes time...

Speaking of time.... why do we have none... every minute sometimes even every second of our lives are either planned out or use up before it even comes.... so we live to work... pay bills.... get out of debt.... make enough money to be broke and still have no time to enjoy life... even the little things.... in the words of Chris Rock "That just ain't right"....

I want to be back in the time where I could just jump on a horse (why not ... sounds good) .. and ride off to where ever I want to see and just earn my keep as I go.... but not today my friend.... I jump on a horse and head for the border I'm getting hit up for a bunch of "government" shit, passport, etc.. ... and what about vaccination papers for my horse ... and whatever duty and animal laws.... this world has gone to shit... and its all the governments fault....

Gun laws.... the NRA.... spare me... watch the movie "Bowling for Columbine" and tell me that Americans need guns... I was blown away with this documentary and it was extremely well done.... and opens your eyes to what is really going on in the government and NRA and how Americans go to the point of where they are now... brainwashed... I feel sorry for them.... brainwashed by their government... lovely.

Media and the distribution of the truth to its viewers are all made up to be bigger and badder and scarier and more terrible then it really is... again... brainwashed to believe that the world is polluted with criminals and that there is a gun wielding psycho in every neighborhood... that induces fear... why in the world do the media want their country or even town to be fearful.... because they will watch more... "did they catch the guy" so on and so forth... its terrible actually ... then while these fearful citizens watch for updates there are ads and commercials about locks ... guns... house protection... go figure... then all of a sudden the local hardware store is full of fearful people purchasing alarms, locks, guns... and other devices that are going to make them "more safe" from the outside world.... yeah... live like locked up mice in a cage... waste your life worrying about things that aren't made out to be... media people know themselves that they only shoot the big stories ... the stories that are dangerous and get the viewers attention... so.... if all stories are like that... then damn ... what about the little things... not the gun wielders... not the psychopaths... what about the AIDS epidemic an Africa... what about the wars that continue to plague small insignificant countries... for god sakes people... you don't live country for country ... you live on the planet earth.... parts of the earth don't matter... we come from the Human race ... who cares what color what dialect or what language... when we die and there are nothing but bones .... does it matter what color we are now?.... does it matter where we come from... NO we all look the same ... so why is it that it matters so much when we are alive.... who knows..... Media and TV and government and all these other influences shade our own perception... we adopt others and alter our path of thought... too many people influencing too many people... too many people not thinking for themselves... too many people try to rule one planet.... a planet that we all live on.... the home for humans alike.... but why can the government build weapons of mass destruction to destroy a country full of fellow humans ... and enough nuclear weaponry to destroy our home.... our whole planet.... doesn't make sense to me... who gave them that power and why do they deserve it.... cause they can talk... cause they can make you think that what they are doing is right for your country ... because you think that they can do stuff for you... mostly material stuff..... fuck the countries people.... take a look at your world.... its the only one we have... and if we keep listening to the people that don't matter... they don't just NOT matter... they are doing it all the wrong way.... we will not have a home left.... take care ofthe planet we have... why do we let government, media, and politicians and advertisers brain wash us into believing that what they are doing is right and they want to protect their people..... ya ok Mr. president... you go fight that war with 50,000 lbs of nuclear weaponry strapped to your ass... come on .... Think logically.... just as quickly as we came we can also be quickly dismissed ... thanks to the so called big guys who obviously rule the planet earth...

So that was my venting for the week.... One world ... One people.... and that’s it.... and we only have ONE world.... preserve it... if not.... big guys win.

ta ta for now

2003-08-28T09:26:00.000-07:00

Baby talk.... I will learn to translate

I got to hang out with my god son and my best friend last night... he is the cutiest thing I have ever seen in my life... his vocabulary consists of maybe 8 words and he repeats them constantly... his most favorite thing is a bus 'buts' <--- his terms... and the kitty... He has learned to argue, and we had our first last night....

flashback

Bailey - GO AWAY!
ME - come on over here bailey
Bailey - NO!!
Me - awww come on
Bailey - NO!!!! -
Bailey - Bits!(which is bitch in baby talk)

I have to say.... my jaw dropped.... Brenda also looked shocked... she totally blamed it on her uncle who is also the god father... he also taught the boy....

question "Who beats ya Bailey?"
baileys response "Jo-Jo"
question "and who else?"
baileys response "Joan" (who is my mom)

GREEAAAATT!!! way to go D-man.... wait till i teach him a thing or two... you'll learn... wait and see... nice thing to teach him... so ... we will be trying to reprogram the kid and totally wipe that from his vocabulary... which wont likely happen... for some reason people think that its 'cute' when kids swear... go figure ... once Bailey learns a word ... that about it...

Bailey - oooooooo.... Its gone.
question - Whats gone?
Bailey - The buts (refer to above for translation)
Bailey - oh my god ..... oooooooo

lol... hes too amusing... and without fail ... no sleep if I'm there... the little bird gets away with everything if I'm there... what can I say... I'm a sucker for cute....

I watch baby genius' the other day and everytime I see Bailey I try to get him to tell me the secrets of the universe.... but with no results... he pretends he doesn't know what I'm talking about ... I know you know Mr..... You'll cave in someday and tell me.... I just have to find your kryptonite.... or just a cookie might do....

well kids will be kids and the more time I spend with them the younger I feel myself.... so go get a kid and bond... (of course only bond with the kid of you know them... don't go picking up kids off the street just to hang out with them.... you don't know where they have been (im sure thats what my mother would have said) ... so go spend some time with kids... who knows what THEY might teach YOU... :o)

ttfn

2003-08-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

MEMORIES..... *sigh*

Did you ever have an experience where a subtle sent or a certain sound brings back a flood of memories... well I had one of those today....

I was walking to work from Timmis, when walking by a house, I caught the smell of, what seemed to me as, dirt and an old burnt out fire.... the moment that I smelled this was when many memories flooded back of my times in old number 11....

I spent a significant amount of my younger years in the back woods of Steels Hill road... We shared so many good times out there ... too many to tell but none will I forget that’s for sure....

I remember that the routine for the weekend was to get some wine or some other sort of cheap alcoholic beverage and wonder off into the back of Steels Hill... we had many bonfires and relocated many times so we usually had to have someone meet us and walk us to the new 'spot' so to say....

There were many people that came and went to the fire pit... nearing the end of our days there they built quite a little hut where they put in a couch and had a stereo for tunes.... looked really good for a bunch of teens out in the woods... drinking under age... having a great time....

One of my last memories of Steels Hill was of a grad party for a very good friend of mine, who also just returned from Ireland (missed us all too much I gather), the grad party consisted of drinking, music, and a tuck in before midnight... good times had by all... there are so many stories I could tell and so many laughs were had.... oh the memories... funny how just a single smell brought back all kinds of memories... memories I didn't even remember existed... funny indeed....

Well I guess I will just sit back and reminisce for a while.... I know all who were there have their own fond memories themselves...

ta ta for now.

"white bunnies, white bunnies, white bunnies"...

"Fire pit too smokey for me..... and Brenda.... fire pit to smokey for me...... and Brenda....." ... oh yes writers extraordinaire that’s for sure..

2003-08-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

Draft = Pain......

I didn't have any plans on going out at all last night... acutally I was pretty excited to go home and go to bed.... lack of sleep kinda gets you excited about that stuff..... So I gave my cousin a call and it didn't take much persuasion to get me to accompany her to a local bar in the area just to "get smashed" ... her words.... so of course I was up for that... so off I trotted to throw on some "drinkin" clothes... jeans and a t-shirt... real pretty for a friday night.... but why the hell would we need to get all pretty'd up for ... we weren't going to pick up bar scum... we were going out to get smashed... thats right.... so we prepared... incase we get the wanders and we are unsteady.... didn't want to wear anything that we would worry about ruining.... smart thinking I think....

I got dropped off at Laurelles house and we said our adius to her fam and off we trodded to get smashed at the Sandbox.... Friday night is Two for One night on everything but bottes.... like beer or coolers... but we had better plans ... we wanted to get smashed and smashed we would be .... DRAFT NIGHT..... oh joy.... I have very hateful memories of that "Draft" I speak of..... we had bonded many times and I was always the one hurting in the end..... but I will never learn.... I actually like draft and it does the job for nights like this..... smashed we would become....

Cover charge was $2 and the beer was $3.25 for 2 doubles...... nuts.... so we paid the cover and danced through the door.... this place really became quite a dead zone on Friday nights... but thats what we want.... no crowd and lots of beer..... we pretty much know everyone in the bar.... small towns do that to you... we order our beer and trod off into the pool room where we decided to hit the balls around for a bit.... all the regual crowd that we hang out with around this area were all at a house party up the road.... we really didn't want to hang around with the same crowd cause we wanted some new faces..... why not right... something new is always good.... so after doing some SNL and MAD TV impressions and consuming quite a bit of draft so now feeling the effects and after some good dancing .... I utter ... " wanna go up Carls? " (the people at the party that we said we were not going to go) ..... her response ... "why the hell not.".... so we downed our drinks and off we treked....

We walked up the driveway and was really thinking that the party was over and no one was left ... but we decided to wander closer just incase.... just to fill you in on a bit.... Carl is not one to make it through a long night... his schedule is usually .....

up at 7
calls a friend .... none particular.... wakes them up around 8
"wanna get drunk?" carl
"Jeez man,,, ........ ok"
drunk by 12
looses speach and moter skills at 1
in bed by 2
up again around 6
calls a few friends
"wanna get drunk?" carl
the party starts.....
drunk by 8
looses speach and moter skills at 10
in bed by 12

now that you know his routine ... thats why we thought that the party was over ... but it was worth a shot ... so we were walking by the house and could hear people in the house.... bonus...... so they seen us through the windw and greeted us at the door..... the people left were Jillian... Angus... Ronnie (laurelles man) and Carls dad.... my first question.... " Carl in bed?" .... YUP.... a while ago.... me not surprised... Carl said we were more then welcome but we just couldn't be too loud cause the miss's was in bed ..... not a problem....

We enter the house and find out that they were in the middle of a competative game of Gender.... don't ask ... I didn't know the board game either but they seemed to take it serious.... now even more because there was an even number of men and women..... big Carl thanked us for coming ... gave us a beer and was now ready to play a proper game.... well... the game lasted about 10 minutes before we needed a smoke break then it continued on.... we slowly got louder and louder while "discussing" our answers.... when dealing with 3 answers the usual result is a 2 -1 answer and the 1 guy was usually right... the miss's wakes up and joins us all for a cigarette on the back step... we all sit and talk ...... when someone exits the door... jill and the Miss's try to move out of the way and go flying off the step and into the grass.... wierd... it actually looked like they were shoved hard.... what alcohol does.... so we pick them off the ground ... make sure there is no blood or anything and continue on ..... they decided to return in to finish their wonderful game .... this was oportun time for me to go home... my spot was filled so it wasn't like i was gonna leave them short femaled... I said my goodbyes and thanked them for their hospitality and beer and went home.... to bed to bed.... and end to a pretty good night.... so easy for plans to change ...

Now I sit with pounding head and a belly full of water and tylonol trying to stop the hammer smashing me in the head..... damn draft... can't just have the good effects ... and always has to remind you of what you did the night before..... but over all I had a good night.... Tonite... I shall sleep....

CHEERS ..

2003-08-21T10:39:00.000-07:00

Who brought the shit.... ??

It has been quite busy lately and I have to say that I did miss being able to write about anything at anytime... since those days are over I will have to squeeze in a post at the most available times....

I have to admit ... last night I was supposed to have been at a Karaoke for work but really wasn't in the mood and just wanted to relax. The night started off ok with me going over a friends place and venting about how work went... we accompanied a few other guys that were "experimenting" in the kitchen and I wasn't going to miss it for the world... Last weekend they had a party at their place and ... like all parties there was quite a bit of alcohol left over.... the left overs included.....

1 bottle Vermouth (hardly touched)
half bottle Peach snaps
half bottle Baileys
1 bottle Campari (hardly touched)
half bottle whiskey/voodka (got mixed in the clean up... boys didn't know the difference)
half bottle rum
1 bottle Granodine

It started off ok.... they actually had a bartenders book... and made a few legitimate drinks ... and tasted every one of them.... but then.... they got brave.... they started coming up with their own contraptions ... some were scarey but all were consumed... at the end of the excrusion they had created.... the Boogie Boogie and a few unamed ones... and I had a pink Jo-Jo... which wasn't half bad at all....

during the whole ordeal ... one of the boys broke out the bottle of Campari... and if anyone hadn't tasted this before DON't ... omg ... what a nasty nasty drink... the person that had it mixed it with orange juice and states that it tastes like grapefruit juice... now ... this stuff is 28.5% ... and in big letters on the label stats ' BITTER ' ... so of course ... we have to find out what it tastes like... well ... the first person tried it .... wasn't pleased... it had a taste that lingered and coated your entire mouth... :oP ... totally gross... he wasn't impressed and pretty much had a grudge with the bottle all night... shit was what he called it and tried to pick a fight with the stuff all night... but I agree with him... Campari was definately GROSS... might be 28.5% but come on... can't you kill the taste with something... nope... didn't matter what we mixed it with ... that ungodly bitter taste just lingered... YUCK.... the brain was quite a gross contraption .. all that was was peach snaps and baileys... just looked gross... curdled immediately and looked like a brain... so if you add a touch of grandodine and ... thats right... a brain hemmorage.... double gross...

All went well and most of the drinks were a success... until that is ... one of the guys came home from work and just needed to have a special drink made for him... was it special ... it was Vermouth, Campari and a little granodine.... total and utter gut rot... mind you he didn't drink it but the man tasted it ... and to that I give credit... Not me ... not a chance... I'm sure they are feeling well this morning ... I threw the idea in the air that the next party they have everyone should just bring a bottle of something... whatever... well Except Campari ... and Vermouth ... there is enough there for any drink... all we have to do is buy ice and some mix and go to it... god knows what they would come up with... but I think It would be a good time... for sure.

well this just seemed appropriate at the time so have a good one and be bold... don't be picky ... whats the harm in trying something... just even once... at least then you can say you tried it right???

Twenty Clues a Woman Should Call it a Night

1. I have absolutely no idea where my purse is.

2. I believe that dancing with my arms overhead and wiggling my butt while yelling WOO-HOO is truly the sexiest dance move around.

3. I've suddenly decided I want to kick someone's ass and honestly believe I could do it too.

4. In my last trip to "pee" I realize I now look more like Tammy Faye Baker than the goddess I was just four hours ago.

5. I drop my 3:00 a.m. burrito on the floor (which I'm eating even though I'm not the least bit hungry), pick it up and carry on eating it.

6. I start crying and telling everyone I see that I love them sooooo much.

7. There are less than three hours before I'm due to start work.

8. I've found a deeper/spiritual side to the geek sitting next to me.

9. The man I'm flirting with used to be my 5th grade teacher.

10. The urge to take off articles of clothing, stand on a table and sing or dance becomes strangely overwhelming.

11. My eyes just don't seem to want to stay open on their own so I keep them half closed and think it looks exotically sexy.

12. I've suddenly taken up smoking and become really good at it.

13. I yell at the bartender, who (I think) cheated me by giving me just lemonade, but that's just because I can no longer taste
the gin.

14. I think I'm in bed, but my pillow feels strangely like the kitchen floor.

15. I start every conversation with a booming, "DON'T take this the WRONG WAY but..."

16. I fail to notice that the toilet lid's down when I sit on it.

17. My hugs begin to resemble wrestling take-down moves.

18. I'm tired so I just sit on the floor (wherever I happen to be standing) and take a quick nap.

19. I begin leaving the buttons open on my button fly pants to cut down on the time I'm in the bathroom away from my drink.

20. I take my shoes off because I believe it's their fault that I'm having problems walking straight.

later..... Jo-Jo

99 bottles of Campari on the wall, 99 bottles of Campari.... take one down try to pass it around... 99 bottles of Campari on the wall. ... well ... its true .. that stuff is just nasty... :OP

2003-08-19T16:13:00.000-07:00

this is a little update for my good friend Steveo....

HAPPY .... I AIN'T GOT NOTHING TO WRITE ABOUT...... DAY

you said you wanted an update..... so there it is......

so happy nothing to write about day.... hope you all enjoy it..... here is just a little something to keep you all occupied with...

The Case of the Knife Wielding Gangster

Detective Hobbs found the notorious gangster Scarface Joe found lying face down on the bar room floor. A bullet had entered his left ear and must have lodged somewhere in his brain as there was no exit wound.

The bullet matched the gun that was owned by Bernie the Bull, another hoodlum, and Joe's rival gang member. It was well known that they hated each other but frequented the same bar.

Bernie said that he was the only customer in the bar when Joe came in and started yelling at him. "He was like a madman," said Bernie. "He pulled out a knife and started coming at me. I shot him in self-defense as he charged head-on at me swinging that knife." Joe's body lying close by still had the knife clutched in his left hand. "He just wouldn't stop coming at me," exclaimed Bernie. "I had to shoot, I had no choice."

The only witness was the bartender, another shady character, who agreed with Bernie's story.

Detective Hobbs just smiled and said, "you boys will have time to think of something better than that story on the way to the slammer." Why didn't he believe them?

he he..... nice story i found online..... something about the words knife wielding ..... oh well..... I will post a real story later in the week.... just gotta make something happen ... thats all...

la la later

2003-08-15T14:07:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY... AND NOT A MOMENT TOO SOON!!!!

thank god for that.... gonna have a relaxing night I hope.... PARTY SATURDAY... YAY... I hope to see everyone there... will definately be a good time....

I'm curious to who visits my page... what can I say... I'm just damn nosey..... sooooooooo

!!!!!!!!!SiGn My GuEsT mAp!!!!!!!!!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND...

2003-08-14T08:35:00.000-07:00

Harry has got to go!!! ....

Enough is enough.... that damn bird has gotta go...

I was just getting prepared for work this morning.... listening to some tunes and wrapped in a towel.... just as I was about to get dressed Harry decided to come and visit me at my window... well acutally its more like throwing himself at my screen till I decided to either open it or shut the window... but this time i was feeling nice and decided to let him in... now ... those who know this bird know that we do not have a good rap.... we just don't get alone... HE HATES ME... and I constantly try to get along with him but NOOOO... he just will not cooperate at all... so anyway.... I pop out the screen and wait for the bird to come in.... he doesn't ... He just sits on the window ledge and looks around the room.... Now come on ... I really don't have time for this .... so of course I go to grab him and he imediately slaps my hand away with his wing... Mr. Attitude ... so I go to grab again... same thing... now the thing was starting to get to me... I'm about to just throw him off and put the screen back in... but I thought I would just bring him downstairs to my mom where she can deal with him... so I grab the bird (he doesn't like it much) and start heading for downstairs... the whole way I'm trying to grab his beak to stop from him biting me... so we fight the whole way while I'm screaming at him to stop before I throw him in the cooker... I yell to my mother to come and get the stupid thing and of course ... I'm the bad guy.... I hand over the bird.. and check out the damage... normal scratches and little brusises from him biting me... luckly in one piece and complain how he is just a pest and thinks he owns the joint... nothing but a freeloader.... I tried to bond many times ... he loves my mom and actually sits down with her everymorning and has tea and tost ... he looks really friendly .. if alone... but once I come around... Attitude... he starts making noise, acting all tough... I go near him he goes nuts... its crazy... stupid thing...

He has been terrorizing the neighborhood for quite sometime now... hanging around the tops of doors waiting for unsuspecting people to exit... where he then makes the lunge... he swoops down and just lands on their head... just for a seat... people don't like that much... a bird... just making a seat on your head... no... so people around my street examin the sky and the roofs before exiting ... just incase Harry is lurking around... Harry has reciently been seen with a wild dove in the neighborhood... just flying around... they dove comes around and usually just plants itself on our ledge above our door just waiting for Harry to come out.... lovely .. now he has a girlfriend... a dove at that... so .. Harry is the dirty bird around my parts... thinks he runs the place.. well Harry my friend ... not anymore... I will run you outta this town... if its the last thing I do... muahaha ha ha.... no bird will be my bully....

ta ta for now...

Down With Harry ... If you see this bird... feel free to just take it, gag it, torture it... whatever... damn bird....

2003-08-12T11:08:00.000-07:00

INSTRUCTIONS FOR LIFE

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.....

3. Follow the 3 R's:
*Respect for self,
*Respect for others, and
*Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immmediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone everyday.

9. Open arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situations. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon......

lessons to live by from the Dalai Lama for the year 2000

Hey I think he makes some pretty good sense.....

cheers...

2003-08-11T19:52:00.000-07:00

STAY IN SCHOOL ... dammit

what the hell ever happened to asking questions anymore anyway.... because we can all find it in the internet???? who knows... all I know is that no one is asking anymore and people just sit and wait for other people to take action/control, ... ok... aging is caused from our lungs... everytime we breathe ... we get old... ok... now... how can we reproduce the cells that are there in the first place... once they can be reproduced... then couldn't we solve the aging problem that plauges us all..... or maybe not... I gotta read into that... our lives have become too easy... so much personal time... so much technology... so many answers .. yet people aren't asking questions... the answers are all there already... insane how quickly technology caught on... go figure.... nothing i said here is true... or hey it might be... just random thoughts ... and I thought it was worth mentioning.

Never be afraid to ask questions... no question is stupid or deserves to be unanswered... the more questions you ask, the more answers you will get, the more you will learn. nuff said.... keep learning... why not... your gonna be here a while ... get it all in.

i think i made my point. .................... .

2003-08-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

"Where the hell have I been....."

out of every darkness comes light... every cloud has a silver lining... tomorrow will be better....

I think I had a bad day again... stay possitive.... Ya whatever..

So I have been pretty pre occupied lately ... work had been too busy to write and I haven't had much time to sit with myself all week... I used to have everything under control... now ... everythings just a blurr...

One of my best friends is having a baby today... YAY.. finally ... last I heard they gelled her twice and was 5 min between contractions ... me yelling " Push Tasha Push " at work... like she would hear me... oh well I was cheering for her... and have been... I give huge credit to young mothers... they deserve every bit of it and more.

So... there is so much I can talk about... it has been a week... and in my life... alot can happen in a week... for one... went to the best party ever on Saturday night... they made some killer home-made punch and named it "Boot fuck Rasberry Creep" and why you ask.... because you drink it all night... It will creep up and Boot fuck you right in the face... and it was the Rasberry theme... IT WAS AWSOME... kinda sweet but if you put a little beer in it it toned it down a bunch... but the recipe is kept secret and will be selling on ebay for $50 a pop... Hey I say its a deal...remember "Boot fuck Rasberry Creep" ... It's the best drink on earth .... you just don't know ... unless you had some ... then you do.

I was digging through my room on Sunday (believe me I really had to dig... I really gotta clean it up) ... and came across my mandolin that I had put away... Now this Mandolin is super old... I don't even know where it came from.... well.. I guess I could find out... Just a sec....

"MOM!" ------ this is me yelling from the stairs.
"What?!" ------ this is my mom answering.
"Where did I get this Mandolin?" ------ me asking.
"Uncle Tony." ------ answering (ma)
"He said if you could play it you could have it." --- stating ... (mom)
"Ohhh ... ok" ---- replying ( I )

so .... as I was saying.... I found the mandolin that my Uncle Tony had given me a really long time ago... I remember fixing it up and putting it away until I could find someone to learn me to play... Well I will learn myself.. dammit ... so .. I did .... and I LOVE IT.... it was the most fun instrument i got to play ever... it wasn't as hard as the guitar but as fun if not more.... So now... I will play the mandolin... oh yes I will.... forget getting the new guitar brother of mine.... pick me up one of those fancy mandolins .... electric please.... so now I'm a Tab junkie not being able to get enough... aaaahhh well ... something to do ... I already know how to juggle....

ta ta for now....

If your happy and you know it clap your hands....... thats so lame...

later.

2003-08-01T14:44:00.000-07:00

TGIF

This was the first week that I have worked 5 full days in a little over 9 months... and no sir... I don't like it... What a wierd feeling ... I feel I shouldn't be here what so ever... odd indeed..

Yesterday turned out to be quite a good day... well rounded and full of odd moments...

After work yesterday evening I decided to spend some quality time with my best friend and my god son... by the time I had gotten there the baby was asleep which meant quality time with her... bonus... we sat in her spare room and chatted for a bit... It was a long time since we talked that much and about so much... with my crazy schedule at work and trying to get things organized it doesn't leave me much time through the week to spend time with her so last night was definatly time well spent... we talked about old days and the future and just good times in general... I recal the first time we became friends...

~Flashback~

I was just going into Gr. 3 at a new school... We moved from our dwelling in Caledonia and moved up to Bridgeport... to me this was a new world than what I knew... and growing up with an 'overprotective' mom really didn't help my 'need new friends' situation... so It was in August sometime and I wasn't allowed out of my yard AT ALL, not even on my street... so I was rollerskating in my driveway in circles... hey... what else was I supposed to do... Along came a little girl across the street and the first thing I said to her was " Wanna come over my house and eat Kraft Dinner? " .. so ... off the girl went home and asked if she could come and eat over my house... now... I ran in the house with the new friend and told my mom that she was eating over... my mother asked her name... and at that point I didn't know her... not even her name... from that day on... we were friends... best friends even... 12 years later... I'm the god mother of her baby and we are just as close... funny how that works...

so last night while we were talking we noticed a larg moth got in through the open window... after numerous tries at getting the insect out and me yelling "I swear if it lands on me I'm gonna karate chop it" ... I finally took of my sweater coat and with one really good shot sent the moth flying into the baby's toy box... (even made a noise too) ... total TKO... I told it not to come near me... I'm really not one for insects... we started talking about how the but got in the house and she said that she didn't know where her screen was... she said she recalled someone talking about how if she took the screen out it would filter out the air better... about a week later ... the screen was gone... looked outside the window... nothing there... oh well... so of course I said ".. think someone was trying to get in?" .... not a good thing to say... so of course her response was ... "Whatcha tell me that for... now I'm gonna be thinking someone is trying to get in my house..." ... so that conversation went on for a while.. how they would get in, motive and who.... ya ok... enough of that now...

After relaxing after that episode we sit down to talk again... we started playing with a rubber ball (one thing about houses with kids... many choices of toys :o) ... the game ended up getting a third player ... one that we really didn't notice until we really started paying attention.... so... we are chatting... I would roll the ball to her... she would roll the ball to her cat .. the CAT would roll the ball back to me... CRAZY .... now this cat loves to play ball... you would bounce it across the room and she would go chase it ... pounce on it and send it flying... so we passed the ball around for about 10 min... not even missing a beat... until we finally realized that it was just to wierd and stopped... so she got up to go get drinks and I resumed to TRY to play ball with the cat... after a few no go attempts..... Oh well kitty... you'll never make it to the pro's ...

the night was over all pleasant and thank god its friday... I have been waiting for the weekend all week... go figure... so my plans tonite include... NOTHING... relax and thats just about it... there are the finals for Cape Breton Idol... there are alot of really good talent and someone will walk away with a whopping $1000 tonite... so I might stop in there to cheer on the finals... who knows... I love not haveing to do anything...

Have a great weekend all and... thanks for comeing in today...

2003-07-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

Catcha later Herbie..

I remember when I was a kid and we used to have house parties all over the Cape... My mother and her sister were inseperable... They were a musical duet with a bunch of mischief blended in... Ever so often I remembered them leaving for a house party and taking a garbage bag that had something in it with them... I would always ask what was in it, and the same response everytime.. "oh its just Herbie."... ok... that makes sense... years go by and Herbie would be dragged from house to house spreading hours of joy to the older ladies that would take part in the music and fun that my family bestowed unto them... It came time for me to finally figure out who the hell this Herbie guy was and why he was always in a garbage bag when he was leaving... and why didn't I see him after they brought him back... (ya ok I was a very simple child) ... so off I go... I venture into our dwelling of a basement in hopes to find the right bag that held this so called "Herbie" ... I recall bellowing a few times... but when no response I assumed he was shy... bag after bag... but no Herbie... finally way in the back... under the oil tank was a bag... like the one Herbie stayed in... so off I went to meet this companion of so many... I slowly opened the bag and looked inside... a tuff of cotton batten hair pops out... I let out quite a scream ... before I know it I'm up the stairs in a flash... I'm going around the house like a mad person at this time (.. I was also a dramatic child) ... My mother had thought that something bad had happend and came flying down the stairs to see what was going on... With tears in my eyes and a mortified look on my face I told her what had happened... I really thought I was gonna get it for snooping around but all she could do was laugh... She liked to share my pain with her sister so before she explained what was Herbie she had to get her over... they pulled the garbage bag up the stairs and decided to finally introduce me to the party animal known as Herbie... well ... when they pulled him out of the bag all I could do was laugh... " Its a doll. " I stated... " A big doll " .... Little did I know but Herbie was stiched by my mom and aunt and was made out of old panyhose and old rags and cotton batten... .. I say he weighed about 10lbs and was about 5'5" easy... he was and older looking doll man... with white hair and a moustache... he wore a grey suit and look really really good for just made out of scraps and stuff... Through the years many a party was entertained with older women drinking, dancing with Herbie and everything... even the cab drivers knew who this old party animal was... Later in life I did find out what the facination was with him.... here when they created him... they created him .. anatomically correct... and well endowed I must add... no wonder he was a hit with the ladies... Well we had water damage a few years back and poor Herbie ended up getting totally water logged with no recovery... poor thing drown in my basement... It was his time... he did his duty... My mom also wrote a song for him and he seemed ly part of the crew...

2003-07-29T10:31:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Cuddles....

I woke up early the other morning and went out to water my patch of growing stuff (can't call it a garden... I just threw them all in in hopes that something would grow .. and they are :o) ... I walk outside and beside my patch of growing stuff is a big patch of soil... I thought my mom decided to throw some seeds or bulbs in and just watered that too... why not right.. im there anyway... so I'm sitting on the step enjoying the sun and looking at my growing stuff when my mother joined me to finish her tea....

ME "growing good aren't they?"

MOM "yup.. what did you plant again?"

ME "Not really sure... just threw a few packs of different seeds in .. didn't think they would really grow... I think those are pumpkins.. or flowers.... I'm not sure... so what did you plant?"

MOM "A dead Rabit."

ME "WhAT?!?!"

MOM "Well not a real dead rabbit .. pretending"

so I of course got her to explain what she meant and this is what happened...

Here my younger cousins rabbit died the night before... of course... she wanted a near by resting place... so her mom called my mom and arranged a grave for the deceased Cuddles... somewhat... they didn't burry anything.. my mom just went out and loosened some of the dirt and covered it with potting soil and told the kids that she burried Cuddles in her yard where he would be safe.... . later that day steff and her younger borther and sister came over with 3 white roses... one from each ... like a little funeral procession ... kinda sad... steff made a little cross out of popsicle sticks with Cuddles written on it and wrapped some prayer beads around it... so this is what parents do... even though there really isn't a dead rabbit burried in my back yard... there is a little girl down the street that feels just a little bit closer to a lost friend....

sweet ...

~Later Today~

Random Memory

What do you get when you add pledge and a kitchen floor? .... perhaps a concussion.

I remember when I was about 13 or 14 .. not really sure of my age but that is insignificant anyway... So my mother agreed to take care of my 4 cousins at their house for about 2 weeks... To us this was a yearly thing... she was their regular sitter but took them when their parents went on their yearly vacation... my mother was really good with the kids and the youngest had Downs Syndrome so it was alot harder with her.... the second youngest is 4 years younger then me but I got along with her alot better then her older sister who is only 1 year older then I am... so the day comes where me and my mom pretty much move in for the time we are there... Now my mother... as fantastic as she is .. is a smoker... now the family was not.. but they didn't care either way... My mother didn't like smoking in the house or in front of the kids so she would either go outside or smoke in the kitchen out the window... the days went buy and all was well... we did kid stuff and went along with our normal routine... school and stuff... But I do remember walking into the kitchen one morning and flying across the floor... for some reason the hardwood floor in the kitchen was like glass... so of course to us.... big fun... I grabbed the others and we must have spent a good hour flying across the kitchen floor... we really slid good... then my mom walks into the kitchen an pretty much near breaks her neck trying to walk across it... we, of course, asked her why the floor was sooooo slippery.... she just shrugged and didn't know... she just washed them like always... but we just couldn't figure out what the hell was going on... didn't matter to us much... we loved it... It must have lasted at least another 2 or 3 days before we finally found out what was going on... here is the scoop... when she was finished smoking she would spray...what she thought.. was air freshner... well . obviously it wasn't... here it was pledge (furniture polish) ... so much to our surprise it works extreemly well on kitchen floors.... poor mom .... it must have taken at least another 4 days for it to be walkable on... alas.. if you want to add some fun to your kitchen .. just add a little pledge... and wear some good socks and its a great fun.. just a thought.

PLEDGE... not just for furniture anymore... :o)

2003-07-28T20:33:00.000-07:00

Lunch time....... 3:25PM

I was walking down town towards our local pizza shop ....... ( inside info..... very windy day combined with a very light skirt ) ... now... around this time town is pretty much a hustle bustle of people ... sitting on benches ... conversing in front of the Tim Hortons ... so... I continue on .... I am paying attention to the wind ... and keeping my unmentionables kept .. well.. unmetioned if you know what I mean.... Its seemed I was playing a strange game with Mr. Wind... peeping Tom that he is ... but .. he ended up getting the upper hand... I'm guessing that I put my arm up for a split second ... perhaps to brush the hair out of my face and a BIG gust of wind comes blowing by and ... YES ... thats right... decides to introduce the town to my...all together now... my unmentionables..... took me but a second to gather myself and whip around to see if anyone had seen what had just happened.... well.. if they did they didn't make it apparent... whewwww...... that was a close one...... I told this story to a friend at work and threw the idea of those ' shower magnets ' sewn into the bottom just to weigh them down a bit .... hmmmm... I might have to invest in a few of those....... again ... a battle with mother nature .... she again wins .... damn you!!!! ...

Finally got home from a slow day at work... quality days always are... I get 8 hours to do 11 quality.... oh joy... by the time 5 came i hade 3 to complete in 4 hours... OH HOW WILL I FINISH.... I'm not complaining thats for sure....

I have to give a HUGE thank you to a very special friend of mine ..... hes one of those " Feel Good " people that just always make you feel better no matter how BAD things may seem.... Thanx again ;o)

I found a little not by my PC tonite when I got home... I'm assuming my mother either found it online or it just popped in her head.... I really don't know the origins of the words but I liked them.... so it may be a short post but I will leave with some good words......

" Do not neglect your music. It will be a companion which will sweeten many hours for you. "

" If you can't teach me to fly - teach me to sing. "

hmmm... nuff said I do believe...

Night all

2003-07-27T00:12:00.000-07:00

Todays song is .... LOSING GRIP..... Avril Lavigne..... totally explains the way I feel ... for today...

cheers.... try it ... you might like it..

short story....

My cousin and a friend she met from Africa went to a local party around here... He seemed to blend in ok when a friend of my cousins went up to him and said ... " Hi there, do you want a beer? "... he looked at her and just replied " Yes " ... so off the friend went to fetch Fahem (the guys name) a beer.... a few moments later she comes back and holds out the beer ' Here you go. ' ... He shook his hands and said .. " no thanx... I don't drink" .... she looked at him somewhat cofused and said " I thought you said you want a beer " .... again he replied ... " yes " .... so she is more puzzeled .... so she holds out the beer.... .. but he again says... " no thanx... I don't drink" .... so my cousin who is also puzzled talks to him and tries to find out what he means... he does have quite a strong accent.... all of a sudden Fahem starts to laugh and he shakes his head ... he speaks up and states.. " Oh... I thought you asked if I wanted to BE HERE... " ... well that straightened up everything....

thats what you get for not listening....

later

2003-07-25T14:12:00.000-07:00

Well... what a hectic week so far... :oP ... definately not fun... I'm sitting here .. sore as hell ... tired and a headache and really not wanting to be here.. but because I'm a nice person .. I came to work and is doing my duty... ha ha.. just cause I couldn't get the whole day approved... oh well...

So... the reason why I'm sore you say.... have someone poke at your face from the outside in and see how you feel after it... here is what happened this week on..... MY WONDERFUL LIFE.....

back to last week.... where it all began

I had to see an Ears, Nose and Throat specialist (Otolaryngologist) because I have been having constant poping in my ears for the past few years and decided that "enough was enough" and went to get them checked out... at first when he felt around and asked a few questions... he said.... " Well Miss... It looks as though your TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint) Is causing way too much pressure and that is causeing the poping and might need to have my JAW RESEATED ..... but he also said that he wants to do a few more tests and gave me to more appointments ... one for Monday past at his office for a hearing test and the other for today at the Regional for more testing... .... So the hearing test went ok... little fluid on the old eardrums but nothing to drastic... .... arrieved this morning ... after sleeping in 2 hours so I was wayyyyyy behind...... waited about an hour to get in to see him and started talking to a few of the other patients there .... One of the girls knew me from when I worked at the bar and started to chat it up about the doctor that we are ALL waiting to see.... they asked me if i seen him here before and I stated no because obviously I haden't .... they kinda laughed and just stated "Wait till you see his office.... its just like little shop of horrors." ........ yeah... ok... that is something that I wanted to hear before I get to go inside .... about 10 min later the nurse calls me in and they get me to lay on a bed .... I really didn't want to look around the room for fear that I just might freak... but I did.... lots of stuff I didn't even know what they were let alone what they did..... so laying there he states that he is going to do some looking around and is gonig to spray something in my mouth and my nose... :| ... me thinking... what the hell for... but the nurse speaks up and states that its just freezing.... OMG ... it was the grossest thing ever... and froze me from my eyeballs to my chest i think... pretty brutal..... so that wasn't THAT bad... he lets the freezing kick in then starts to come at me with some long tube like thing with a light on the end... mind you i wasn't impressed with the stuff he did... I will not put you through the gorey details but it wasn't fun... but when he whipped out a steel rod with a light... i got scared.... but all poking a probing was finished within 20 min and prognosis...... surgery..... YAY.... Here the genius doc that did my adenoids the first time... didn't do them right ... and he has to go back in and SCRAPE what is left that is causeing the poping ears and the apnea... fun fun fun...

so as of now... my face feels like it was mushed up from the inside and I have one monster of a headache.... getting old.... oh well... can't live forever... ha ha ya right... I will :oD .. I'm a Jo-Jo ... what else am I good for..... I have to complete my plan to take over the world... or try anyway...

have a good weekend...

ta ta for now.....

2003-07-23T08:53:00.000-07:00

Innocent
Loving
Youthful
Open
Curious
Honest
New

A Childs Point of View

I speak for all the children.
Who's been caught in between.
The fights their MoM and Daddy have.
How can they be so mean?
Their yells and cries they go unheard.
Until its much too late.
Little ones must suffer for their mom and daddy's ways.

You've heard the womans side of it
You've heard the husbands too.
But have you ever heard it from a childs point of view.

Sometimes they are the victims
of a drunken home I know.
They go without food to eat.
They go without warm clothes.
They're hungry for a little love.
They can't make it on their own.
Some are left all by themselves so loney and alone

Chorus

And what about those babies,
when their Mommies get so mad.
She may hurt those little darlings,
for something done by dad.
They can't ask for help or pity.
They can't grow up on their own.
They need a loving Mom and Dad.
They need a happy home.

Chorus

This is a song that my mother wrote ... before I was born I do believe... I started singing this when I was very young and we got a chance to record it when I was 10... this song has so much meaning ... she is an amazing writer and I wanted to share some of her words...

Children are Tomorrows Everything....

2003-07-22T16:05:00.000-07:00

This page bores me

2003-07-19T15:02:00.000-07:00

Last night was a good time... lots of money raised for a good cause and good times with good friends...
I ended up sleeping on the shoulder of a friend in a local pizza shop after hours... I missed alot of action from what I was told... a bunch of fights, cops and and ambulance from what I gathered... but what do I know... I was sleeping... thanks again...

Today I was going through some stuff in my room and came across a few things that I really didn't think I still had... packrat remember...
I found a tin can full of aluminum foil... with a quite large ball of in the middle squishing the foil together... I had to think hard about why I had that in the first place... I was saving tinfoil back when I was a teen cause I was told that you could sell it when you got a pound... gave up on that one... my year books and my certificates from the colleges... and highschool... man if I only applied myself where I might be now... *sigh* can't dwell on that one...and only 3 more years till the 10 yr reunion... crazy... I came across a few photo albums... I could spend hours looking at pictures... I had a ton that I will have to scan later... I found a bottle of liquor that my mother gave me from my grandmother when she died .. she got it from a companion of hers .. he broght it with him when he came over on the boats from Czechoslovakia (I can actually spell that right) ... so this bottle has quite a history... and get this... Its never been opened... Its in some language I don't know... and it has a pear in it.. a full pear.. stem too.... something I really hold dear... I also came across an autograph book that my aunt had given to me... she signed it on the inside... in 1988 ... she died a few years later... so that to me has meaning... I put an emotional attachment on stuff... no matter what it is... something to keep a memory... something to keep them close I guess... To remind me that they are always there... I might not think about them everyday... but they are there .. in one way or another...

I save alot of stuff ... its just stuff... but think about that stuff as a memory ... a significant purpose ... packed away in all the boxes all the bags .... something... they have to associate with something to be there...

have a good one

cheers

2003-07-18T14:07:00.000-07:00

As I sit here and desperately pray for a breeze... the heat here today is maddening.... everything you do is totally draining.... I will soon start to prepare for the upcoming events of this evening...

There will be a Heart and Stroke benefit dance with a bunch of fun before.. during and after.... all is good... too HOT though...

Damn ... we freeze our asses off in the winter remeber... we begged for this....

2003-07-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

So... now I'm home ... YAY... :o| not really... what the hell do normal people do from 9pm on... dammed if I know... I sit ... and think... then comtemplate bed... then decide its too damn early for that... I was actually supposed to go to the Sandbar for Karaoke tonite but really wasn't in the mood to listen ... let alone sing... so I will be spoken to tomorrow.... oh well...

Day shift is not a GOOD shift... its BAD ... evil even... my so called life turned into ... total rearrangement .... My god... everything I did normally was thrown into the wind never to be seen again... my walks have been broken down into ... "whenever I can find the time" .. I'm not particularily fond of the nights... good to drink ... but I would rather work them anyday to be able to go on my walks not worrying about when I really HAVE to leave... shitty deal .. totally... But .. I have to keep reminding myself its not that bad... It will get better... HA.. we shall see....

enough talking about my shift... its starting to get real old... and I'm sure that everyone is sick of reading and hearing about it... so there.. I'm done... for now..

I have been trying to deal with a bad habbit... I used to be a total pack rat... everything and anything I would hold on to... just for memory sake.... and cause it was mine... but I went through a few things earlier this week and brough back many many memories... I was digging through a box .. from a previous relationship... hey what can I say... memories.... So this last relationship was very different from all the other dead end door stops I have been through... the last one was a challenge and learning experience ... I learn so much in relationships and take away more then what I went in with... I learned a new language, culture, and that there was a big world out there aside from Cape Breton... go figure... the only bad thing about the last relationship was that I wasn't prepared for when it was over... kinda hit me like a rock.... it definately took me a long time to recover from that one... even if I did at all.. and I really can't say that I'm ready for another one ... old habbits are hard to break.... oh well.... maybe someday... I like to keep myself busy and distant from any opportunities that might appear... I don't like to say that I dwell on the past.... I just don't like change... decisions amost paralyze me...

So here I sit... with way too much time to think... kinda mellow... just relaxing... remembering...

Where are you going?
With your long face
Pulling down
Don't hide away
Like an ocean
That you can't see but you can smell
And the sound of the waves crash down

I am no Superman
I have no reasons for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?

Are you looking for answers
To questions under the stars?
Well, if along the way
You are grown weary
You can rest with me until
A brighter day and you're okay

I am no Superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is where you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?

Where do you go?
Where are you going?

Where do you go?

I am no Superman
I have no answers for you
I am no hero
Oh, that's for sure
But I do know one thing
Is here you are is where I belong
I do know where you go
Is where I want to be

Where are you going?
Where do you go?
Tell me, where are you going?
Where?
Well, let's go

Dave Matthews Band/Where Are You Going

This is a song chalk full of memories...

take it any way you can get it

-earlier that day-

I really Liked this email so I decided to share... will post later.

WORDS TO LIVE BY
1) Life isn't like a box of chocolates, it's more like a jar of jalapenos
-- you never know what's going to burn your ass.
2) I love deadlines. I especially like the Whooshing sound they make as they go flying by.
3) Tell me what you need, and I'll tell you how to get along without it.
4) Needing someone is like needing a parachute. If they aren't there the first time, chances are you won't be needing them again.
5) I don't have an attitude problem, you have a perception problem.
6) My reality check bounced.
7) On the keyboard of life, always keep one finger on the escape key.
8) I don't suffer from stress. I am a carrier !
9) Some folks are slower than a herd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter.
10) Everyone is someone else's weirdo.
11) Never argue with an idiot.. They drag you down to their level then beat you with experience.
12) Be careful . . .a pat on the back is only a few centimetres from a kick in the butt.
13) Don't be irreplaceable - if you can't be replaced, you won't be promoted.
14) The more Shit you put up with, the more Shit you are going to get.
15) You can go anywhere you want if you look serious and carry a clipboard.
16) So this isn't Home Sweet Home . . . Adjust!
17) Ring bell for maid service.. If no answer, do it yourself!
18) I came, I saw, I decided to order take out.
19) Blessed are they who can laugh at themselves for they shal never cease to be amused.
20) What should you give a man who has everything? A woman to show him how to work it!

I think they are true enough....

2003-07-14T12:58:00.000-07:00

Well...... here I sit in a place where I haven't been in quite sometime .... At work..... at 4:30 pm .... thats right... you heard me right... not in bed ... AT WORK.... it kinda feels like a really creepy episode of the twilite zone.... dum dum dum....

After blasting out of bed .... scared to death that I slept in.... which only being 7:am.... knew it was going to be an interesting day.... it took me a while to get comfortable today and seemed OFF in more ways than enough.... if I get through today .... All will be good....

So as far as my weekend went.... definately a good one... had tons of surprises.

Friday night was pretty much planned itself ... we just went along for the ride... nothing could have went wrong that night....

Saturday night was just an adventure in its self ... basically started at a house party... moved into a few of us jumping in a car and doing some bar hopping.... we pretty much planted at the Main Event.... Now that all the bars from here to god knows where are NON SMOKING ... god forbid and me and a friend decide to go out for a puff... well... we got more then we expected.... we were beside the side door, around the back, just under the balcony ... we were half way through our cigarettes and a good conversation where we were rudely interrupted by a stream of .. something coming from the balcony.... no... can't be..... GROSS... here some jerk up on the balcony thought it would be funny to ... relieve himself ... over the side... to me ... this was the most unappropriate thing ever... and the guy that was standing next to me thought it to be someone rude also... .. as we were bitching about what just happened there was a couple walking down the stairs totally flipping on the guy .... Good enough for him.... my company was just happy someone was putting mr wilderness in his place... imagine... too damn lazy to go find a bathroom... men... think they can just go anywhere.... so we walked around the back to finish our cigarette without having to worry about getting relieved on..... and all i see is another guy just turns around near a car and answers the call of nature..... this was way tooo much for me to handle and I start..... just picture a female squat where ever she see's fit... I think not... I guess thats where civialized comes into it... or ... alcohol.... one or the other... after a 5 minute argument that I knew was going to go no where.... we enter back into the bar for some final music before retireing for the night..... .. "In the words of Bubba.... right on hard on" ... don't ask ... it was all he could say past 2am...

Sunday was nothing the way it was planned out to be.... It was SUPPOSED to be ... go for a walk.... relax .... then spend the day with my friend who was home from Liverpool.... well.... it was more like..... walk.... "Lets go get drunk" ... kidnapped for 6 hours..... oh yes ... you never know what will happen out of the blue....

so overall ... my weekend was definately a good one... so now I sit back in my chair at work... trying to tell my body that ... "yes you ARE supposed to be here" ... damn thing just wont listen.... thinks it should be home in bed.... I think it might take some time to get used to this shift ... but I really did miss everyone on this shift and kinda feels back at home.... just like Grade 9 again...

I didn't even know we had a summer till I walked outside during my first break and was hit by a wall of heat.... hey .. thats what you get when you sleep your life away... not anymore dammit.... I will complain with the rest of them...

cheers.... just as long as I keep remembering its Monday .... It shouldn't be all bad.

2003-07-11T03:14:00.000-07:00

Thank God It's Friday

If you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all.
-- Thumper's father (Bambi 1942)

enough said.....

enjoy your weekend....

AND I'M NOT COMING BACK TILL MONDAY AT 12:00pm .... IF THEY'RE LUCKY....

just venting

will be a fun packed weedend... I hope....

what do you expect ... its my last 3 day weekend... till my 5 day one next weekend.... he he

2003-07-10T01:14:00.000-07:00

Should I stay or should I go?

Woke up late today... wrong side of the bed I guess.... started getting ready for work... sat down for a few minutes to chat with my mom and blurted out .. "Can we Move?" ... she was kinda thrown by my comment and asked "where?" ... in the back of my mind I was thinking anywhere but I just said Ontario... I know she wanted to go there... she has some family there and my brother only lives in Ottawa... I pretty much want to hook her up... get her some good sturdy bearings ... I need her taken care of before I can start my life... I worry too much about her not to... just me I guess... We talked about it for a bit and came to a few conclusions....

Cape Breton is a retirement Island or a good family raising Island .. not a career or future Island

You get in a rutt here... thats it.. your stuck unless you got a really good shovel to dig yourself out of...

If you have nothing... you will pretty much get nothing...

Very Very poor place... bad health care and even worse economy... very sad

The only really good thing about here is the people... never will you find people like here... we might not have a cent in out pocket but anything they can do for you they would....

I can't get over how much money rules the world... when you think of it ... it does... if you have money you have power... if you don't .. you struggle and worry and spend your life wondering how to pay your debts or manage to get by for another month... thats quite a life... I think not... why can't we be in the days of just robbing and slander and trading and just buying stuff with stuff ... :oD ... *sigh*... those were the days... oh well... money it is... soon its just going to be plastic and computerized... like credit sticks or something... god knows what they are going to come up with next...

But back on the moving away topic... I have been feeling like I don't really belong here.. kinda like I don't fit in just right with the whole scheme of things... oh well... alot of people that found out that I really haven't been anywhere were really shocked and assumed I was a city girl and travelled alot... WRONG... but I know that I gotta see what the hell is out there... I feel so small and insignificant here .. I gotta see the big picture.... the world is a big place and I'm in a very very small part of it... I know I would come back... but for some reason ... I just have to go....

Maybe I might need to flip a coin on this one... Heads I stay... Tails I go....

well maybe 2 out of 3

take it anyway you can get it..

2003-07-09T03:06:00.000-07:00

Goodbye oh fair shift...... *sigh*.... well... as of Monday I will no longer have my shift.... I have taken this shift about 9 months ago not really wanting backshift and totally falling in love..... well.... they decided to mix it up a bit and throw a new shift bid at us ... we ended up getting a new mentor on the contract and we didn't have proper 24 hour floor coverage so they had to *tweek* the current shift to fill the gaps.... HA HA.... what a tweek ... I get the first pick of shifts and I didn't even see one that was for me.... not happy ... at all.... My heart sank as I came to the realization that .... I WILL HAVE TO GO DAY SHIFT.... *gasp* ... panic time.... It has been so long since I had to work with "them" ... them being the big guys... management... people that probably don't even know that I still work here I have been hidden away for so long.....

I just don't fit in anymore.... the backshift spoiled me.... dammit.... changes changes changes... lol.... well.... here is one for the books.... bet these would go over well....

Top Ten Reasons To Go To Work Naked

10. No one ever steals your chair.

9. Gives "bad hair day" a whole new meaning.

8. Diverts attention from the fact
that you also came to work drunk.

7. People stop stealing your pens after
they've seen where you keep them.

6. You want to see if it's like the dream.

5. To stop those creepy programmer
guys from looking down your blouse.

4. "I'd love to chip in...
but I left my wallet in my pants."

3. Inventive way to finally meet that
'special' person in Human Resources.

2. Can take advantage of your computer
monitor radiation to work on your tan.

And...drum roll...
the Number One reason to go to work naked :

Your boss will never say,
"I wanna see your ass in here by 8:00!" ever again.

.... he he... wouldn't I fit in then....

oh well... 12pm to 9pm starting Monday... kinda like starting all over again... new people... new shit... oh joy oh joy...

Dance like no one is watching... hell ... even if your naked

2003-07-08T00:31:00.000-07:00

Intro - Verse - Prechorus
D Bb F
e----------------------------------------------------|
b------------------------------6--------------------|
g-------2----------0--------5--5------------------|
d----0--0------0h3---3------3--3--3---------(0)-|
a-0--0--0--0h1---------0-3--3--3--3-3h5-3--|
d-0----------------------3----------------5-3------|
Guitar 2 (left channel)
e--------------------------------------------------|
b--------------------------------------------------|
g--------------------------------------------------|
d--------------3------(3)-------------------(0)--|
a----------0h1-----1-1-0------------3h5-3----|
d(0)--------------------------------------5-3----|
(slightly behind tempo)

now doesn't that look pretty.....

just a little something I'm trying to learn..... I have finally gathered something..... To make a guitar sound like those who play the tunes that your try so desperately hard to learn you have to FEEL the music.... It sounds so corny but so unbelievably true ... how else are you going to make it sound anything like what it is supposed to if you can't feel it.....

This is the intro to a new favorite song of mine.... I'm so behind the times.... This song is Creed - "My Own Prison" ... I was reciently introduced to it briefly this weekend and got it later the next day.... Once I heard the intro I knew that I had to learn how to play it.... SO..... I'm learning .... Its definately a keeper..... one with amazing lyrics...

A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel

Should have been dead
On a sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time

I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

.... Just a taste .... how sweet it is..... and the tune is really good too..

I don't really know why music is such a big part of me lately.... well not to say that it hasn't been ... it was just dormant for soooo long.... why now.... why not 5 years ago or 5 years from now..... oh well.... I'm just glad its back.....

I have to say ... Eric Clapton was one of my biggest musical challenges that I encountered over the years .... now introduced to artists such as..... Dave Matthews.... John Mayer..... David Gray..... Creed .... Seether .. and many many more.... It seems that I can't learn enough..... Just doesn't come as naturally and where I would have no trouble in remembering lyrics... gone-o..... Its like I dropped the singing and totally moved onto the instrumental aspect of the whole darn thing.... isn't that just nice....

Music is the true communication within the world ... spoken in all languages shared by everyone and enjoyed by all who can listen.....

2003-07-07T08:04:00.000-07:00

Sunday had to be the most overall "PERFECT" day of the entire summer so far..... for sure..... I'm not saying that the other two days weren't good cause they were great too but Sunday ... it was just right on the button.... for once.....

It started with a trip to the pool after a late night of pool and beer the previous night ... which was also tons of fun.... so the pool was pretty active with people coming and going ... after some swimming I help with making, for the first time, Kabobs... it was definately fun.... I'm not much of a cook so when someone teaches me something new ... I'm all for it..... after this we take the dogs for a walk down to the beach cause it was such a beautiful day and wanted to share the "walk" with her.....

" ...You can take the walk ... do not share the walk.... "

the walk takes mostly 2 hours minimum for full effect.... so it was a great one I must say.... a day down the beach totally beats all.... I will just list a few radom things at the beach....

1. the bridge is definately totally entertaining ..... they host a few crab fights .... right now the little guy rules the roost there....
2. really big women shouldn't wear spandex bathing suits thats 3 sizes too small and now .. "seethrough".... and her husband really shouldn't wear speedos.... I think I'm still having flashbacks.... yuck.
3. always bring water when having 2 dogs that don't know the difference between a rain puddle and a salt water puddle..... I really thought their toungues were going to fall right off....

there were lots of crazy fun stuff that happened at the beach but it was one of thos "Had to be there" moments .... she understood the walk ...

After that I went home and here a friend of mine from away got home and I gave her a call.... I invited her out with a few people that were going to the Hawks Club for a little jam session then up to the Sandbar for some drinking fun...... she accepted and swung buy and got me around 9ish.... went and picked up my cousin and her crazy friend and took off to the hawks club..... more then I totally expected... it started off with just some pool playing, ping pong and some random talk of music..... about an hour or so we did pull out the guitars and started to jam... somewhat.... till two amazing amazing guitar players finally decided to join in ...... *shock and awe* ... the first lines out of one of their mouths is "Do you like Dave Matthews?" ... well ... that was enough for me.... my first response was " can you play satelite? " (Lawson challenged me to learn it and have been trying since) ... I never seen a guitar grabbed so quick and something played off so easily..... like totally effortless..... amazing .. to me anyway.... we played out some creed, nickleback, carlos santana and we all agreed that we will definately have to do this again.... the hours slipped by and before we knew it we were being kicked out cause they were closing up.....

3 guitars
4 musicians
1 broken string
hours of songs and music

*Priceless*

they Dave Matthews buff gave me his number and said that he would teach me all the Dave Matthews he knows (which is
everything) just as long as he can have someone to jam with... I guess most people he jams with doesn't like Dave..... thats just crazy....

The night ended with some good conversation with some good friends up the Sandbar in a "Not too drunk" athmosphere.... Perfect... what more would I have wanted with this night..... maybe met someone famous......

I pretty much did..... I met awsome musicians that love to play as much as I do and love to play what I love to learn..... I'm so excited now.... happy day.... I just hope the week doesn't drag... that would just suck...

I guess we shall see none the less.... can't pause the good times but can always blog about them... reflect back on the bad days just to let me know that it really does "get better" .. so to say....

ta ta for now

2003-07-05T13:57:00.000-07:00

What a hangover.... I really cannot say that last night was a success on my part.... I was somewhat "unwell" ... go figure... there will probably be a post out of everyone about last night... It was quite eventful... even though I missed half of it.... dammit. I never wanna drink again... To sum it up it was me sick outside... stumbled to steves bathroom and slept there for a bit... then crawled into his computer room and slept on a chair with a towel over me.... woke up early next morning and jay drove me home.... I can't say I totally recall the entire night .. just bits and pieces.... yay... wasn't that fun now... sorry guys..

So.... I'm going to a party up my cousins tonite... swimming with a side of beer .. what a mix... should be a good time... I get to hang out with a crew that I don't get to see all the time... nothing really changes a whole lot here... It seems that when people go away and then come back the only thing I hear them talk about all the time is how much we DON'T change ... we are just so set in our ways here... It works... why change... right ? ..

I have actually attempted starting to write some songs again... I can pick out alot more now so I wanted to put some lyrics to the tunes... I have never found it easy to write... I'm too critical about my words... oh well.. its worth a shot anyway... gives me something to play with ... like I don't have anything else to do..

Well that was just a small thought in the middle of the weekend....

Jo-Jo

2003-07-04T04:58:00.000-07:00

have a great weekend....

2003-07-01T21:40:00.000-07:00

It seems that you always get an "OFF" day when you least need one... by off I mean just not well.... I feel physically fine (for once) and just not mentally happy... seems my head is in the gutter all night tonite... can't say that I'm much myself today... It seems that I'm trying to throw myself around and slowly wearing myself thin.... must be vacation time... or a small one anyway...

I can't really say that I have a whole lot to talk about tonite ... even though I have another 4.5 hours to keep myself busy there doesn't seem to be a topic that I want to talk about.... Just basic rant I guess....

It seems that everyone and their dogs are blogging now... when I first started very few people that I knew blogged... now it seems that there are few that do not blog and most of the people that do I know from work... what can I say... what else are you going to do ... work? ... not likely....

Before coming to work tonite, while doing my normal "getting ready for work" routine.... I sat down to talk to my cousin that lives with us... I might live with the woman but rarely get to share time with her.... she is 64 years old and is somewhat slow... we never really got a diagnosis of what was really wrong with her but its all cool... she grew up with me practically ... see.. when she was growing up she was an only child and her parents died when she was only a kid so family member (before we were around) helped raise her.... When we came down from Ontario (my mother and us 3 kids) she was living alone in a little house that her parents left her.... she wasn't competant to live on her own and ended up getting really close with my family.... as the years went by she ended up burning her arm really bad on the stove and several days later finally told my mother what happened.... from this time forward she lived with us... my mother was her guardian... pretty cool I must say.... so growing up with her was like having a sister ... but alot older... for god sakes we would even fight like we were.... so through the years we had more than a cousin relationship.. she was more like a sibling... pretty much.... so after her battleing a bout of breast cancer and doing excellent I might add... she is healthy as a horse ... always has been.... I now like to look at her as a younger sibbling... one that never really grew up... she has pretty much been in the same state of mind the whole time I was growing up.... quite amazing I might add... no worries... no cares .... really quite sereal.... So... sitting down with her today was enjoyable .... to an extent ... I love talking with her but she is quite deaf and it drives me nuts to have to yell when we talk ..... but I do... I like to ask her questions about her childhood and memories she has (she has an unbelievable memory).... she is quite a character.... She never forgets a birthday, phone number or any dates... she has an awsome memeory for numbers but cannot read digital time.... uncanny how the mind works.... ... I remember how I used to have to break her and my mom up cause they would be arguing in the kitchen over something stupid..... they are kinda like the two old people in the balcony on the muppet show (I don't remember their names but I know that they are named after hotels) .... they are awsome.... but for some reason I feel that I have to take care of these women.... I just have such a feeling that during the past few years mostly that the rolls in my home have changes.... from daugher to caregiver.... I make the money and I take care of the fam.... I know I don't do what I really should be... I should be doing more.... but me sitting at 24 and feeling that she needs to take care of her family is somewhat strange to me.... my mother spent her whole life caring for others and giving her time away... she is now 56 and done what.... raised 3 great kids... taken care of her mother until her last moments.... thats not the lifestyle that I was fishing for but history does have a way of repeating itself... doesn't it? ... who knows ... I may be the only daughter.... but I am also the baby... seen nothing ... been nowhere....

as the saying goes.....

"A sons a son till he takes a wife, A daughters a daughter for the rest of your life" - a saying my mother said to me for years and years...... was she preparing me for something.....

2003-06-30T18:46:00.000-07:00

Happy Canada Day ... a day early.....

I ended up waking up this morning ... really thinking it was July 1st... so ... Me being all patriotic and stuff ... start wishing people " Happy Canada Day " ... and I was wondering what all the strange looks were for..... soo... I finally did find out that it actually wasn't Canada Day today but tomorrow... so I will celebrate twice.....

Signs Showing You Might be Canadian

1. You're not offended by the term "HOMO MILK".
2. You understand the phrase "Could you pass me a serviette, I just dropped my poutine, on the chesterfield."
3. You eat chocolate bars, not candy bars.
4. You drink Pop, not Soda.
5. You know what a Mickey and 2-4 mean
6. You don't care about the fuss with Cuba. It's a cheap place to go for your holidays, with good cigars and no Americans.
7. You know that a pike is a type of fish, not part of a highway.
8. You drive on a highway, not a freeway.
9. You have Canadian Tire money in your kitchen drawers.
10. You know that Casey and Finnegan were not part of a Celtic musical group.
11. You get excited whenever an American television show mentions Canada.
12. You brag to Americans that: Shania Twain, Jim Carrey, Celine Dion & many more, are Canadians.
13. You know that the C.E.O. of American Airlines is a Canadian!
14. You know what a touque is.
15. You design your Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit.
16. You know that the last letter of the English alphabet is always pronounced "Zed" not "Zee"
17. Your local newspaper covers the national news on 2 pages,but requires 6 pages for hockey.
18. You know that the four seasons mean: almost winter, winter, still winter, and road work.
19. You know that when it's 25 degrees outside, it's a warm day.
20. You understand the Labatt Blue commercials.
21. You know how to pronounce and spell "Saskatchewan". (Sas-Kat-chew-wan)
22. You perk up when you hear the theme song from 'Hockey Night in Canada'.
23. You were in grade 12, not the 12th grade.
24. "Eh?" is a very important part of your vocabulary, and is more polite than,"Huh?"

Never thought I was patriotic..
. oh well.... CHEERs

Jo-Jo

2003-06-27T02:11:00.000-07:00

All I can really say is " THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!!!! ".... I know I only worked 3 tens this week but what a long 3 shifts it has been.... I have decided that I am going to do absolutly nothing this weekend cause I don't have to.... and thats that..... nothing is soooo fun to do cause you never know what will happen.... everytime I plan nothing ... It always turns into something interesting... I guess I will have to sit back and see....

I have to say.... I pick up the most insane hobbies.... kite flying... origami.... juggling... etc .. I can't pick up anything that anyone else does.... thats just unpossible.... so right now ( and for the past few months ) I have been driving myself insane ... I think I figured out a few years ago what I wanted to do in my life.... interpreter ... translation... languages... I have alway had an ear for it and I absolutly love hearing and learning new stuff in as many languages as I can get ... so.... I have been picking up on Arabic.... what a tough language... ya ok ... why not something a little normal like... French or Spanish... well of course.. once again.. I had to be different..... the only thing I really struggle with is remembering the vocabulary... the script isn't as bad as it looks and I like to associate it with cryptoquotes... kinda makes it more fun.... so after taking it out and putting it away sooooo many times over the last few months that I am totally lost and don't really know where to pick up from.... I found a really good book at the library,,, and yes we still have those.... but it seems that me and another "Arabic Scholor" have been sharing the book for the last few months... but ... to my surprise ... the other sharing party decided not to return it this time.... hey what a good idea.... use it till your done with it.... I always hated getting a book for the 2 weeks and not even getting totally into it... just pisses me right off.. so when they finally get it back in its mine.... YA HEAR THAT ... mine.... and I will pay the late charges ... every damn dime.....

so have a good weekend... I decided just to make this a short one.... just because I can...

Salam...... Au revoir....... Joi Gin..... Tot ziens........ Antio...... Sayonara......... Addio......... Hasta la vista........ Kwa heri...

or plain english......
Goodbye..

Jo-Jo

2003-06-25T23:32:00.000-07:00

Its about Freaking time.... damn blogger took a long time to update... but all is well...

Here is an e-mail I recieved today ... I changed the answers and made it apply to myself... I love getting these and I wanted
to share...

1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Josephine.... but people call me Jo-Jo or whatever I answer to ... which is pretty much anything.

2. WHAT KIND OF PANTS ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? they are a light blue cotton.... great summer pants... what a dumb word ... pants...

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? just random voices at work.... rarely I listen to nothing...

4. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DIGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 3315

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? A reese peanut butter cup... they are just godlike.

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Yellow... fun yet fantastic :O)

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? dark and cold....

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? ... an agent...

9. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? their composure... how they hold themselves in public... you can read
alot with just how someone acts and presents themselves.

10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Hell ya... Nicole is awsome..

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? ...... unwell... but its sporatic... damn body don't wanna listen to my brain... figures... never ending battle.

12. FAVORITE DRINK? ..non alcoholic... water or diet pepsi...

13. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? labatt light.. or double ruby tuesday..

14. FAVORITE SPORTS? to watch ... basketball.. Its hard to follow some of the other games.. whats so hard about throwing a ball into a hoop at the other end of the court.... its like " running... bouncing... passing... running... bouncing... shooting... missing... running again... etcetra until it gets to the pattern of ... running,, bouncing... jumping... scoring... in that order".. :oD

15. HAIR COLOR? HA HA... right now... BROWN ... I know its crazy... normal hair on me.... must be a phase.

16. EYE COLOR? blue

17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? no

18. SIBLINGS? 2 older brothers... 2 younger half brothers and a younger half sister

19. FAVORITE MONTH? July or August ... or any non snow months.

20. FAVORITE FOOD? tacos are great... spaghetti, pizza if its from the right place.

21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? ... "Gangs of New York" ... and will be watching it again and again... fantastic movie.

22. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? ... days are days are days.... enough said...

23. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? ... Yup... sober

24. SCARY MOVIE OR HAPPY ENDINGS BETTER? both.... depends on the day.

25. SUMMER OR WINTER? SUMMER ... I dont know how much I can stress that.

26. HUGS OR KISSES? ....Hugs are the best.... kisses are sweet too.... affection .. what a great invention

27. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? .. relationships are great ... one night stands are just a waste... but neither right
now. too busy for that stuff.

28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? ..both.... depends on the mood.

29. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDOLS? ,, yup .. a few

30. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? Living at home with "the mother" and "the cousin"

31. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING AT THE MOMENT? nothing really but my brother tries to push good Lit on me... damn writers.. they just don't take no for an answer.

32. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? dell... isn't that original

33. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Risk or pictionary

34. If you could have any super power what one would you choose? ... to fly.... above all.

There ya go... A little info about ME.... have fun...

ttyl
Jo-Jo

2003-06-24T21:16:00.000-07:00

All I can say is that TROOPER is down right fantasic.... what else can I say.... It's all been said...It seemed that every blog I read had something to do about TROOPER in it.... so I will keep it short.... everyone had a blast... that much fun.... even though I did miss the meet and great at Steves... damn that wandering syndrome... always kicks in at the wrong times.... but next time I will be there... I always miss the good stuff..... but the concert was excellent and I definately give it two thumbs up .. 4 sure.... Congrats to Steve and Lawson on an excellent opportunity to join the band on stage.... what fun... :o) ... and to our honorary Capers (the band themselves) perfect... couldn't ask for any better... Bravo

Live music always brings back some good ole memories ... the way it was around my place was that no matter what the occasion ... as long as there was family home there was a party.... funeral.. party... wedding... party .... damn .. I'm sure that if someone started their period they would throw a party... just to party.... I remember all the foot stomping ... fiddles and guitars playing and my two uncles fighting... thats all they did... they were like night and day.... one drank wine and not beer, the other drank beer and not wine... of course until one ran out that was.... then whatever they had did nicely.... if one didn't play the right tune ... one was off key... they were always reason for an argument .... men... well I guess thats where I can say that I gathered most of my musical talent... from the family... my mother told me that she would sing to me all the time when I was a baby and the louder I cried the louder she sang... .. funny ... kinda like its hardcoded right in...... I started singing around the age of 3 to 4 and had no fear of performing.... I would sing for the doctor... she would take me to eat and all anyone would have to ask me was to sing and I would break out my tunes..... nothing stoped me.... children just don't know any better..... It is sooo different now..... where did it change... when did I start caring ... and why do I still? .... All I know is that I fear to perform.... I feel comfortable playing but just not singing..... I don't know why.... just do I guess...

So all is well here .... back to work tonite after a four day weekend.... excellent overall ... even a hospital trip for some stiches (not me).... aaaahhh the joys of summer.... I can tell this one will be one to remember....

* I am going to do up something for my mother ... I will link it up when I'm finished.... I will mostly be using it for her original work... I don't think that there are enough web space for the amount of music this woman has written ..... "Ode t' MuM" .... C'est parfait!!!

ttyl

Jo-Jo

2003-06-22T17:47:00.000-07:00

Sunday...

What a fantastic day ... I think... It started around 5pm when I woke out of bed and started for my daily walk to the beach.... Upon getting there I emediately headed for the boat section... I don't exactly know what its called but the can launch their boats or sail or anything I guess, all I know is that I went over because I remembered that there was a display about what kinds of birds are there and I wanted to see what they were called ... anyway .. as I approched the landing toward my left was a car parked about 10 ft. away and if I looked to the right... in the grass... was a man .. shirtless kinda laying on a blanked face down.... WTF.... I didn't know what to do... It just that it was 6pm and it was getting cool down the beach ... so I kinda sauntered towards him just looking to see if he was moving (breathing) ... I was about 2 ft away .. too nervous to get any closer... Hey .. It was just creepy ok... so I turned around and walked away .. what I thought was ... " If he is still here when I get back I will go then" and started down on the shoreline... then I started thinking... "what if he is in trouble..." dammit... so I went back.....I walked in towards him but I wasn't sure how to address him... should I just yell... or kick him... decisions .. so I shout .. "MISTER...... HEY MISTER.... are you ok?" ... nothing.... so I try again .. "MISTER...... HEY MISTER.... are you ok?" and I see his eyes open and roll around in his head as he tried to focus on me... "hey mister,, are you ok?" he s like "yeah" and tries to focus... " I was just tired " ... ok .. that was good enough for me .. I appologized for interrupting and continued on my walk... I guess I didn't reaslize that people did that here.......

I walked up to the end of the boardwalk and back down when I was close to where I started and met up with a friend from dominion walking his bike on the sand beside the boardwalk.. the first thing that runs through my head was ... why isn't he walking it up on the boardwalk where its easier... so I ask.... he states... "cause I'm building my calves.." ... ok .. so I decided to tell him about the "guy" that was sleeping in the grass.... my friend just laughed... asked how old he was ... I said about 50ish ... and he stated " People start doing that around that age " and I was like ... what... start sleeping in random place.. he just nodded... note to self : don't ask questions!.... so he tells me that he is waiting for some friends that are going down the beach to party.... alright.... I'm assuming the time is near 7pm... not really close to being dark yet and there are tons of people going to be walking the boardwalk tonite because it is such a nice night out... he askes me if I wanted to go .... " sure " why not... it will be interesing anyway .... so we are just chatting while waiting for the other... so they come flying down and park .. I wasn't sure who everyone was but once they got closer there was no doubt it was going to be interesting.... we had a guy home from long haul.... just him being there was enough to know... he looses his speach the drunker he get.... hilarious to say the least.... most of his conversations transverse into random words... funny .... so they arrive me only being there because they brought a guitar.... so they have a 24 of beer and a backpack... a guitar and 2 bags of ice.... we go up the end of the boardwalk and they break out the beer, take off their shoes and bring on the tunes.... people are walking the beach and the boardwalk watching a bunch of hard core cape bretoners trying to have fun... right... HA HA... thats what I thought... It wasn't so bad... I got to listen in on a few " guy " conversations.... interesting ... and we just sang a few songs and drank a few beers.... I enjoyed it... but I knew that some were getting too drunk and it wasn't even dark yet... I just found out where they would be incase I was going out .. and left... too much fun for me....

On my way home I just grabbed a slice of the best pizza ever .. "The Golden Crust" Its amazing and it was right out of the oven so I walked as it cooled down.... overall I had a fantastic day ... nothing as I planned happened but was overall complete... so now ... I will just sit back ... watch " Gangs of New York " and just veg tonite.... typical Sunday night..... Tomorrow Is TROOPER ... YAY... I'm soo exicited.... till next time....

"Who knows what will happen ... out of the blue"
Labbatt Blue

Jo-jo

2003-06-21T11:31:00.000-07:00

HMMMMM... who me???

Imagination

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perhaps.

2003-06-19T18:32:00.000-07:00

HE HE... I'm trying to get the blog to look somewhat presentable..... "Super M" has been helping me out with tons of fun stuff... "thanks to him" .... so it will be going to be a little staggered looking around here for a little bit.... hopefully will get some sort of flow... if not ... it will be jumbled ... JUST LIKE ME... ha ha...

ttyl

Jo-Jo

2003-06-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

ITS ABOUT TIME.... DAMIMT..... "Its beginning to look a lot like summer" and thats just the beginning...... I have been looking forward to this feeling for a long time..... Today, everything reminded me of summer... what else could I say.... I have to say that the sun has sooooo much to do with how you feel overall.... and right now I have to say that I'm perfectly pleasant.... for now that is..... but I will enjoy it while I can... days like this make me realize that there may always be bad days but it acutally does get better... and today is definately one of those days.....

After leaving work this morning ( 9am ) after a long night of backshift.... I was pleased to see how nice it had become out... I decided to catch some of that sun everyone has been talking about... working backshift can really do a number on your body and puts you in a vampire status... You get the eyes and everything... " EEEEK the sun.... I'm melting..." ... that type of thing... so I get ready to get some rays ... I plaster on some tanning lotion, SPF 4 .. just in case right... pull out a blanket and head to the back yard for some quality time with good ole MR SUN...... It was a little windy this morning but the sun heated it up nicely.... I was sitting on the step applying the lotion when my mom lets MR. Harry Parrot out.... he is our pigeon that we have had for about 2 years ... really agressive little bastard and thinks he owns the place.... I have yet to learn that bird some manners..... so yelling at the bird to leave me be I saunter off in the grass to find a place to Veg for a bit..... ... I lay down... totally exhausted from working the previous night and really wanting a good night sleep I close my eyes to enjoy the relaxing heat from the sun and I think I spend maybe 8 minutes before the clouds take over.... it starts to get chilly from the wind and I just try to wait it out...... while waiting .... still with eyes closed, I feel a little body hopping beside me... and with a tiny voice I hear ... " boofyful day today idn' it " ..... well ... I must say I was a little thrown by this .... so startled me jump up to take a look at what child was sittine next to me..... here was a tiny little girl... still in her PJ's ... just laying on the blanket beside me trying to strike some sort of conversation..... so I replied saying that It was indeed a beautiful day and asked her what her name was.... she stated her full name ... Pamala was her first name..... so I start asking her random questions ... I was really interested in what the young girl had to say ... she was fo-wer (4) and just lived in the house just up the hill from me.... I was blown away that a child so young was so outgoing and had no fear in strangers... this kind of bothered me..... I quickly found out that she was my best friends little cousin..... so we carried on a little conversation ... I just asked her random questions ... I look up at the house she lives in and her father comes down the hill to see what she is up to.... I talked to her dad for a few minutes and he told me that he can't keep her in the house... she wanders all the time... my mother told me that she used to see her jump into cars ... her parents would be screaming for her and she wouldn't have a care... one day they found her at a local store but it was across 2 main roads...... uncanny.... he said that he tried to scold her but she was like " but daddy ... I looked both ways " .... amazing.... children today know sooooo much more than we ever did .and are to damn independant.... we didn't have access to as much information as they do today and are so advanced at earlier ages..for goodness sake ... my nephew is 21 months and understands both english and japanese... we will have super kids by the age of 3.... boggling...

anyway.... It was a well enjoyed day... even though I didn't get the sun my body so desperately needs or that for the brunt of the good weather I was cutting ZzZz's in my bed... Just knowing that the weather is getting better is enough for me..... well tomorrow calls for rain... and so does Friday ... we shall see what comes I guess.... I just have my fingers crossed for some sun for the weekend ... my poor white body can't handle much more.... need vitamin B ... or whatever it is you get from the sun... I was just hopin for a super tan... maybe the weekend.... mother nature providing.... We seem to still be battling ... I would like to find out what she has against me... oh well.... another win for her...

ttfn

Jo-Jo

2003-06-17T20:00:00.000-07:00

WHAT A GREAT WEEKEND AND START TO A NEW WEEK ... kinda....

I have to say... I was usually one that would be partying it up all weekend but for some reason I am sooooooooooooooo sick of the drama and headaches of going to a bar to drink, dance and mingle..... not anymore.... now when I go to a bar I feel that I am too old to be there.... the drinks are probably watered down cause they are so cheap and the music is sooo loud you couldn't migle anyway.... plus you get the crazies out.... let me explain......

The last time I was out at a local bar around here (the one I used to work at) ... I was having a good time... dancing ... chatting ... all that great stuff... I ended up meeting a girl from Ontario there and she instantly nominated me her new friend..... all good ... she was a friend of a friend anyway right.... well all was good and we were going to a party after the bar..... so its 2am ... bar is closing ... I'm pretty full .... getting tired ... long week at work.... over all happy ... UNTIL..... This wing nut chick comes flying out of no where and starts screaming at me.... ME ... HA HA .... not likely.... I laugh and try to listen to what she is going on about ... something about me sleeping with her man.... HA HA again.... wtf ... sorry thats not my style ... I don't go around sleeping with other peoples men ... total waste of my time... so the next thing I know ... " my new friend from ontario " ... flies off the handle and starts bitching the other wild chick out... I'm just standing back ... speachless ... here are 2 girls that I don't know... losing their minds... for what .... who the hell knows..... ANYWAY.... enough is enough.... I shall preoccupy my time with something else thank you very much.... I have other things that need doing.....

So I have become quite a fitness nutt ... I love the feeling of a good workout along with a hot shower.... nothing beats it.... Me and my best friend actually got some time together (with no one else around) ... doesn't happen often.... So we go for a walk... the one I have been doing every day now for about a month or two... really good one too..... So we are given er' ..... and get to our destination... back to the beach.... we hike around for a bit and decided to walk the beach back up (we used the boardwalk going down) ... while walking the beach we get too looking at the big patches of coal dust that runs in with the sand... definately a kodak moment..... the tide was amazingly low again and the waves have created pictures in the sand with the scattered coal dust ... it reminded me of huge ink blots.... I thought it was pretty cool..... we have tried to pick out some images in the sand which was really neat until we hit a certain one..... It was quite interesting... as soon as I seen it ... It poped right out at me.... I swear cause I seen it with my own two eyes ... I had to talk my friend through what I saw and she did see it also ... it was JIM MORRISON ... just the face and hair but Jim none the less..... blew my mind ... the ocean created an ink blot with coal dust of jim morrison ... I was in awe... whenever I end up going to that beach something interesting happens ... so we kept on walking and decided to get back on the boardwalk and head home... while we are walking up the boardwalk ... a lady standing on the dirt road yells something towards us ... we ask her to repeat it and she said " Where is the walrus" ... huh... oh.... a walrus had decided to swim in to our shores and make himself comfy here... tons of people have been going to see this wonderful animal... its quite rare that one swims into our shores... its not cold enough for it here..... so I told the lady that it was in the Port Morian area .... the look on her face told me that she had no idea where I was talking about.... so I asked her if she was from around here and she said no but stated that the only thing she knows is " Tim Hortons makes good donuts " hmmmm... ok.... so my friend asks where shes from and here they were from Florida ... HA HA.... I'm sure that there is more stuff in Florida then they would ever see here but if they wanted to go see a walrus dammit I will help them... so they ended up pulling out a map and I showed them the right route to take... little did I know that the walrus wasn't in Port Morien but in Schooner Pond ... close enough... I just hope they get to see it... so over all it was a pretty productive day... we hardly spoke on the way home .... just walked together .... something we didn't get to do much anymore.... she was my best friend for at least 17 years.... we had our tough times had our moments but it feels really good that we can still hang out ... like the old days.... she was always getting me into trouble... she was the ring leader ... I just followed.... will share some of those stories some other time.....

Anyway ... going to take a break here for a while .... I will probably be back in a little bit ... It's going to be a long night.....

*ding* HELP DESK......

till next time

Jo-Jo

2003-06-13T00:47:00.000-07:00

.... I want to first start with an e-mail I received today ....

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)

you would bein my heart.
Would I be in yours?

.............well...... kinda makes me think...... I'm 24 now and happily single.... I have relationships of all kinds ... for some reason I don't want to say that I was ever "In Love" .... I know I loved who I was with.... but don't you ever think what it would feel like to be the center of someones world .... or someone being the center of yours.... I know I do ... all the time.... I say I'm not ready for relationships or the dating game but I know what I want .... I think.... This subject boggles my brain and stirs up feelings that aren't needed ... well... not right now that is... I want to keep my priorities in order ... education ... career ... maybe family if I can find time.... It doesn't seem that my heart has the same priorities as my head... *damn you heart ... always getting in the way... just when I start to think that I have things undercontrol....* ... So ... I guess I will just have to sit and think about what it is that I "really" do want... not what I "think" I want.... (2 different things) .... hard times.... oh well... they will get better :o) ... they always do.... right ???????

Keep the loving in mind.....

Jo-Jo

2003-06-11T01:57:00.000-07:00

What a day .... Nothing seemed to be in alignment at all.... from the time I woke up to roughly this time (I'm starting to feel a little better) nothing seemed right.... I couldn't put my finger on what wasn't in place ... something was wrong ... BUT WHAT?????

I woke up around 7pm ... pressing my snooze button periodically (addicting thing that is) ... I like to set my alarm at least an hour early to get maximum snooze use ... around 8pm my mom pops her head in my room to make sure I'm awake... I do the usual "Yup, I'm awake", with the fake bright eyed look.... then lay back down and wait for the next 9 minutes of snooze time to pass before I drag myself out of bed and prepare myself for a lovely night of backshift.... I like to say that I have the best shift in the building.... bragging rights I have.... I work 4, 10 hour shifts from 10pm to 9am which means that Friday morning when I leave the building I'm not having to return till Monday night at 10pm ... how sweet is that... Anyway, I get up and I like to say that for the most part ... I don't really dream.. and if I do .. I just forget what the hell it was about ... well, except for that reoccurring dream from when I was a kid.... *shivers* ... creepy.... (can't talk about that one yet) ... but I do know that I did dream last night and flashes of the dream haunted me from the time I opened my eyes. ... I still kind of shake my head, trying to make sense of it all..... but whatever did it ... I must commend because it had me thrown off all night.... nothing seems to click right.... I try to shake the cobwebs but nothing really helps..... It seems like the forces of nature were trying it’s hardest to rattle my senses, making it difficult to keep my mind on anything..... I knew something was bothering me ... BUT WHAT???? .... I just couldn't nail it... dammit.... got the best of me again.... I seemed to be a mixture of anxiety with a little of either Deja Vu or Vertigo ... really really freaked me out.... I end up getting bitter inside and not really knowing if I wanted to scream or cry .... really strange for me because I'm not really a moody person (I know I know.... I'm female but I pretty much learned to filter out the bad "woman" genes) .... so this was throwing everyone off... I wasn't myself at all,,,, at work I kept to myself mostly... not really mingling for fear of an explosion of whatever was building up inside...... so . of course ... I fled to those nearest to me to help solve whatever it was that was causing me to be so down right miserable .... with lots of questioning .... that kind of resembled an interrogation... we narrowed the issue down to a few things..... Either I slept on the wrong side of the bed..... or the dream I had that day ... HMMMMMMM ... perhaps.... think think think.... I can pretty much remember what happened in my dream ... most unusual ... and I was kind of shaky when I woke up.... but no... a dream never affected me before ... why would it now? .... questions that have been driving me nuts all night... I met my friend for a coffee at my lunch time ( which was 2 am) and we sat down and just talked ... he mostly tried to make me laugh just to ease me up a bit... I have to say that spending 45 min or so with him did help and I seemed to have calmed down a bit....

So.... my problem rests at a simple little dream.... WTF ... now my mind is rebelling .... how silly ... I can't say that I have been under a lot of stress because I handle stress with a grain of salt ..... like the famous saying "It doesn't matter" ... well to me it does.... I didn't say that I needed added stress or added anything for that matter.... some fixing is in order.... blah.... to hell with it.... wait till I go to dream land next time ... I'm going to kick ass ... no one messes with my head and gets away with it..... er.. um .. YA.... so mother nature can't get me in my awake world and is shooting for my dreams now.... sorry sweetheart ... not happening this time.... stay out of my head .... :o) and that’s that.... so I think I will be searching for some ... " BAD DREAM ELIMINATORS " on the net.... hmmmmm ... I wonder if they are selling them on e-bay... or even some “mother nature” spray or something....

In search of a really really big dream catcher...

I’m going to check out this site…. Might help me with some answers ….. Wish me luck ….* And the battle continues… mother nature - 1 … Jo-Jo - 0 * … oh how I will seek my revenge ….. HA HA HA… er … ya… so ttyl … dream moods

Jo-Jo

2003-06-10T01:46:00.000-07:00

WOW ... It has been a while..... Why you ask? ... insanity ... I have never gone through so many changes at once in my life .... I will have to dedicate a whole weeks worth of posts to fill in on what’s been going on... I have wanted to come on and write during random times but never really got the chance.... Crazy...

So... I'm on a new contract at work now... trying to settle in and get comfortable with my work but there is still soooo much that I have to learn before I get fully confident (and that may take a while) ... I have been recently cleaning out my closet ( not clothing that is ) .. trying to rid myself of unnecessary stresses or uncomfortable situations.... Quite a task indeed... It was harder then I thought it would be but I am slowly achieving what I put out to do....

Ok... now I can talk about today .... what a fantastically (my word) good day I had and it all started at 2AM Monday morning.... this was my day....

I ended up napping late again today, 8pm to be exact. I was too tired to stay up all night, to prepare for my upcoming backshift the next day so I decided to just take a cat nap to get my by till the next morning when then I would finally sleep.... WRONG ... didn't work out that way ( never does ) ... My eyelids pop open around 2am when I feared that this would happen ... dammit ... another 6 hour nap... I might has well keep myself busy since I knew I was in for a long one.... The remainder of the night consisted of me watching 3 movies while grooming my pet rats (which I have found myself neglecting recently) ... I have 3 of my own rats and I'm rat sitting 2 of my cousins.... I had quite a dilemma around this time last year with multiple births of many many rats ... 28 to be exact ( but that’s a different story ) .... any way ... I let them run around for a bit while I finished the little bit of laundry that I had left to do and needed to tidy up my room .. (after a good week of rushing it gets pretty destroyed) ..... so as the hours roll by I desperately try to keep myself busy for fear that I might get tired and ruin my day by sleeping..... anyway ... after bathing the rats and cleaning my room it finally got to the point where the sun was finally coming up.... ( I love it ) .. so it must be around 7 when I saunter downstairs to get a drink and the fam was up already... my brother was making a coffee while my mother was just chatting to him about random things.... They asked if I just woke up and I just laughed and said "barely" ... I sat down and conversed with the fam for a bit and just rambled about how my weekend went .... the time passed and it was coming on to 9am when I looked .... I decided that I didn't want to go to bed just yet and decided that it has been a few days since I went for a good walk..... so I went upstairs and packed some supplies... .. Not really knowing what the weather was going to be like i wore my shorts and T-shirt under my track pants and sweat shirt ... Just in case ( you never know what the weather is going to be one minute to the next on this island.)..... I pulled out my back pack and started to through in random items that I came across..... a book, my kite, an umbrella hat, a second cassette tape in case I get sick of the one in my walkman, some extra cigarettes .. just in case,,,,, and a few other things from the last time i ventured out ... like an alarm clock, a pocket dictionary (never know when you need to look up a word) , devil horns from Halloween ... just for fun.... .....

So I threw on my runners and off I went ... I must have been planning on making it a good one ... and I did... ....

My usual route is to dominion, down to the boardwalk then back ... but not today... I was going to change it up a bit. I was making great time and really having a great walk when I'm walking through the little sitting park on the way to the beach.... I see this younger mother yelling at her 3 year old son to turn back towards her.... here the kid was flying up the sidewalk in the opposite direction of his mother just given er’.... I was weak ... there is this woman just screaming at her kid and the kid could care less.... I just walked by ... kind of laughing inside ...

I get to the beach and get to the end of the boardwalk .... Tourists call this beach "Black Beach" ... because of the coal dust that washes ashore... something I never really noticed before until I heard the name.... this beach is pretty neat ... while walking the board walk on the right is your swimming beach and on the left is like a little beach with some wild life ( like birds and more of a wetland thing) ... I have been going to this beach for years and years .. somehow this year it just didn't look the same ... something over the winter changed the beach .... the sandbars down there were bigger then I have ever remembered them and you could walk around the whole beach without really hitting water.... It was pretty interesting... I made it to the end of the boardwalk and continued on towards Lingan to take a look ... after getting out of sight of the boardwalk I pulled out my kite and decided to relax a bit.... what a stress reliever ... just sitting on a dune smoking a cigarette and watching my kite flap in the wind.... enchanting ... I start to walk up the beach on the wetland side looking at the different birds and just marveling over how low the tide was ... I was never able to walk out that far before .... just as I'm looking around .... a bald eagle carrying a huge fish lands about 30 feet in front of me.... I'm in awe ... never have I seen such a beautiful bird this close up before ... I'm baffled .... above the bird is a group of seagulls waiting for the fish that the eagle had.... he perched atop the fish ... spread winged and was ready to fight off anything that dared attempt to take it from him.... I watched it for a bit .... then continued to walk down the beach ... still in somewhat of a shocked status from the eagle so close that I decide to pack away my kite for the day and just gather a few shells for my mom ( she likes that sort of thing ) ... upon inspection of the shells that were strewn everywhere ... i seen a seagull fly overhead dropping something from its grasp ... flying down and eating what was left after it smashed on a large rock... "So that's how they do it..." I never really knew how they ate the stuff that was inside... whether it was crab, muscles, snails ... whatever.... they just fly height and drop it .. hoping that it will smash open so they can have their fill .... while watching this ... i see shells all over the place ... but something wasn't normal.... the shells were huge ... I couldn't get over the size of the snail shells .... like they were sprinkled with miracle grow over the winter.... i threw a few in my back pack and continued on seeing what else I could find..... As I look around I pick up something sticking out of the ground ... much to my surprise it was a fossilized bone.... hollow on the inside .. it looks like a bone ... but looks like rock.... weird... I also pack that away and head back to the board walk and towards home... ....

I get home and give my mother the shells and tell her the story of the eagle landing in front of me with the big fish..... I show her the fossil I found and mention that I should bring it in to UCCB (University College of Cape Breton) to get analyzed ... What a day .... I leave at 9am for a normal walk and get home around 12:30pm .... exhausted at this point ... I finally fall asleep .... I can't wait to find out what the fossil is from, and to be able to go back to the beach... my solitude ..... such a quiet and peaceful part of the beach with no noise but the water .... no one to talk to but the birds and nothing to fear but fear itself.....

Till next time, Keep your eyes and mind open ... who knows what you will discover...

Jo-Jo

2003-05-28T23:58:00.000-07:00

HOME OF MY HEART……

…. SO….. I got to sit back at work last night and relax a bit….while relaxing … I got to thinking….

I found myself complaining on how boring Cape Breton is and how there isn’t anything interesting going on or never anything to do….. while thinking this I look out the fourth floor window (where I work) and I had to say …. I seen the most beautiful scenery I have ever seen and came to the conclusion that ….. I LOVE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!...

….. for those who don’t get to see what I get to see daily….. Picture this……. (damn the stuff we take for granted)

Gazing out the 4th floor window I look out at our little town in the most beautiful way….. I see the town slowly coming alive at the minutes pass …. The sun slowly rises just out beyond the horizon behind our great Atlantic waters….. The sun looks like its on fire as it turns the whole sky a blend of yellow, orange and red…. Just below the sunrise I can see the fishing boats just out beyond the harbor …. Its absolutely breathtaking …. I forgot how much beauty lies within this small Island in Eastern Canada and I start to think of how lucky I really am to be a part of this….. I started to think of how much this place has been through along the way … we went from a total natural resources as the main employment for people here (fishing, mining and lumber) to just a smorgasbord of everything… no matter how depressed we are we still find a silver lining to hang onto….now I can’t really talk about what it was like to be in the coal mines underground or even to be hauling traps and making a living on the sea …. But I can look back at all the people that made Cape Breton what it is today….. We come together in hard times and give whatever we can for anyone who is in need, even if we only had very little ourselves…. We are the most friendly bunch of hooligans that anyone will have ever meet….. We are pretty popular around all parts of Canada and also have meeting places around the provinces (local Cape Breton pubs) …. WE GOT ER ALL BABY :o)…

Sooo….. I’m no longer bitching about where I live and how there is nothing to do here because seeing that scenery made it all worth while… so what if we haven’t got the big amusement parks and zoos … and so what if we freeze our asses off in sub zero temps while snowed in for days… ice storms and hail in July…. I will keep them all just to say I’m from this beautiful island paradise :o| …. Ok now I’m overdoing it….. as the saying goes…. Once a Cape Bretoner always a Cape Bretoner …. You may leave … but you will always return….

You can click here for a little more information about good ‘ole Cape Breton.

Well…. I might be back to write more as the night progresses…. Who knows what can happen out of the blue….

2003-05-27T23:24:00.000-07:00

Finally…. Things have started to slow down a little bit…. It has been a little crazy in my world … for sure… I have been thrown around at work and I actually think that I’m starting to settle down and feel comfortable at work again….

Its that time of year again…. See… some people have “New Year Resolutions” .. well not me… I have summertime resolutions… I swear by them … well now I do anyway.

I have been feeling pretty good lately.. I’m on some really good muscle relaxers and pain killers for my back … I had a little attack last week but I’m back up and running as close to par as I guess I can get…. ( I secretly think in my mind that I was never hurt and that I can do the same stuff as I always did … boy was I wrong … I’m no superwoman that’s for sure ) …… I started back on my walking regiment … Going very well I must add.. I walk at least an hour or two a day … It was really hard getting back into walking that much but now I’m cruising at full force…. C I set a goal for me to drop at least 50 lbs this summer…. It will be quite a challenge but one that will put my life back on track….

Well…. Summertime again in good ole’ Cape Breton… Not a moment too soon I might add… this ridiculous winter had me thinking that summer would never come…. I want to make this a Summer to remember… I will be creating a list of things that I want to do this summer and check them off as I go… but there will have to be mucho thought into it … Summertime here takes forever to come but by the time August comes we are in a major heat wave and are hoping for some kind of cool weather break .. but I swear if I hear ONE person complaining about the weather I will knock their block off (he he… just wanted to use that phrase … ) … but really though… we had such a cold and snowy winter that I really don’t care how damn hot it gets … you will not hear me complaining that’s for sure… I will be working back shift with Friday, Saturday, and Sunday off and not having to come into work till 10pm Monday night… what more could I ask for… Sun all summer through the day and work all night… It’s a sweet deal…

It has been soooo long since I blogged that there is a lot that I can write about…. My eldest brother and his wife and son are coming home this Friday … they live in Ottawa (which is a plane ride or a 24 hour drive from where I am) … the funny thing is .. is that my mother hasn’t seen her godson yet (my brothers son) .. Kenji will almost be 2 soon and this will be the first time we get to meet him… My sister-in-law is Japanese and that would make Kenji a halfi :o) its too cute… we have pictures and stuff but its just not the same…so it should be quite a family reunion … other then them coming home, my brothers other daughter (Jeanna) will be coming down the following week to spend time with her dad (my bro) and the rest of us…. We only get to see Jeanna once a year so its definitely a fun time when she is around

… Its funny because Jeanna is in a TV show (locally) called “ Trailer Park Boys “ which is definitely not a show for kids but she acts in it as a main character “Ricky’s” daughter Trinity… even though she isn’t allowed to watch it … she does great…. I have to say that I don’t watch the show much (I just don’t watch TV) and more and more people are watching it and thinking it’s a terrific show… power to my niece… ( I think I will get her autograph before she goes back…. Hey … who knows…. It might be worth something some day :o)

So I have been picking up the guitar a lot lately…. I really can’t really say why….. but it seems that I get the urge to play a lot lately…. Oooooo…. Maybe its another calling … I could be the next … ummm…. Really good female guitar player .. he he…. Its actually strange because now… I would rather play then sing… and that never happens … I’m usually the first person to be belting out a tune with the rest of them… now … I would rather play then open my mouth … oh well that could be a good thing after all…. Like really though… how many people would remember me as being a “Quiet person” .. ohhhh no… not I….

Well I guess I have babbled on for long enough but it has definitely been swell but the swellings gone down….. ( I love Tank Girl … she’s my hero ) ,,,

Well ttfn …

Jo-Jo

2003-05-22T01:40:00.000-07:00

How do I say Hello……..

Well my messenger name says it all today “Josephine…. In search for that special someone” …. What does it mean you ask? …. A lot.

Let me go back a bit to when I was a kid…. ~ Flashback ~

I grew up pretty much an only child. My brothers were sooo much older then I was (the youngest next to me was 9 years older)…. I never really asked a lot about my dad. I grew up under a single parent house and never really knew what it was like to have 2 parents ( a mom and a dad ) ….. well that wasn’t really the case…. I don’t mind not having a dad cause my mom did a fantastic job on both…. There were many times when I was a kid that I would see my dad and step mom out and about … never spoke to him … never really acknowledged that he even existed (definitely made me feel better)…. As I got older I started to think about what is missing in my life… I am the 3rd child out of 6… 4 boys and 2 girls…. I never had a sister growing up … had brothers but I always missed that little bond that my friends had with their sisters…

The only real bad thing about this situation is that my 2 younger brothers and my only sister only lives about 10 min from me and I had never seen them… I don’t know what they look like or even their age…. Why you ask, … I was never allowed to meet them… I was denied by my fathers wife and was told when I was little that he was not my father… now that hurts … me, being only a child and told that the person you knew was your dad … wasn’t…. but, of course she is wrong and he is my dad…. And I also have a sister out there… It seems so unreal to me… how could I have waited so long … what have I missed…

Jennifer is only 6 years younger then I am and is turning 18 this year… It is so uncanny that I started thinking about her only weeks earlier…. Kinda spooky…. I always told myself that when she turns 18 … that’s they day I will either knock on her door or give her a call…. I have to meet her… she is my sister … the only one I have and I feel like a little piece of me is missing…. Strange and unusually things have been happening these months and are quite unexplainable … I guess mother nature is at it again…. I have had dreams of running into her…. My brother swears he seen her around…. I constantly think about her … someone called my home looking for Jen .. which was weird .. Just numerous coincidences that all lean towards her… Don’t get me wrong I want to meet my 2 younger brothers too but I have the brother thing down … I need to meet my sister… so many questions go running through my head like….

“Is she anything like me?”

“What does she want to do in life?”

“What are her views like? “

“What kind of personality does she have?”

“Does she like spinach?”

really though…. This is something that is playing on my mind for quite some time…. What to do? What to do?....

I definitely need to think this one through… I need a plan of action…. But how???? … who knows, it might come in a dream….

Later…

Josephine

2003-05-21T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hello again… Its been a while but I have returned with a vengeance… he he … just had a fantastic weekend that I will fill you in on a bit of the action…..

Friday night – It was a well adjusted weekend … and like all others, have over booked myself and promised too many people that I would be at least dropping by… So the night started with some good ‘ole Cape Breton Karaoke at a friend of mines house… and I must say that it was a hellava time…. Then we moved on to the Sandbar (one of our local bars) … there we drank, danced and laughed… I forgot how much fun it was to hang out with a lot of great people that you work with. So me and Brenda (my best friend) have decided to keep going and moved on to Billy D’s (formerly know as the Guildwood) … Here we also had a great time … danced all night and ran into tons of old bar friends that I don’t really get to see as often anymore... after the bar was closed (2:00am) me, Brenda, the DJ and a friend Grego all hoped in the DJ’s jeep and drove us home…. Over all … I rate this night an 8 out of 10 .. :o)

Saturday night – This night started off on a strange level… I also over booked this night and I think that I made the right decision… there were a few parties going on that night but my prego friend Tasha volunteered me to go with her and Jill just to have some fun. … so of course I told her to bring the video camera and I will bring the supplies… now when I say that I’m brining supplies, I bring good supplies. …. So as the night began the fun also began…. We first started at the Steel City (a bar in the city) … we were there to drop some money off to Tasha’s mom so we could go off and start our night…. We waited… and waited… we left…. We found out later that Tasha’s mom went to a different bar in Glace Bay and didn’t bother coming into Sydney…. So we continued on …. By this time Tasha, being prego and all, started to get hungry… we stopped off at our local Casino to grab a bite (almost the best food in town) … so after we ate it was time to find something fun to do… in-between the waiting and the eating I was just filming the town and talking to the camera … I love to video tape….. so I will list the top 10 randomly fun things that occurred that evening…

1. Saved Tasha from having to “drip dry” in the Tim Horton’s bathroom…..
2. Video taped an older man running up the street … we tried to fit him in the video all night long….
3. Driving around the drag while rocking to “Informer” blaring.
4. Having Tasha wear devil horns while condemning people to HELL (screaming at people “Your going to Hell” out of the car window.
5. I became Tasha’s hero for the day, all because I brought along a water gun … which we had to refill twice… nothing like driving the drag while squirting people out of the corner of the window… way to go Tash…
6. Having a guy become totally paranoid because we sat across the street and tormented him by video taping his every action….
7. Having a guy strip in the middle of the drag JUST because he was being taped.
8. Having people from away ask us for directions to the nearest food court at 1am but made them sign my autograph book before I would answer his questions.
9. Had a guy wanting to drop his pants JUST because we had a camera. (damn,…. What is up with people wanting to be naked every time a camera is on them… sheesh)
10. Almost making a taxi driver choke because Tasha condemned him to hell while at a red traffic light..

I have to admit that I had a fantastic time on Saturday and cannot wait to be able to do it again….. I rate this night a definite 9 out of 10 … just for originality…

Sunday night – This was a quick one… I already knew what I was doing on Sunday and my plans were set on Friday night…. Since this was the legendary may 2/4 weekend we get one local bar that is extremely packed on long weekend holidays… We made plans to meet at a local tavern where we used to spend a lot of our time….. The majority of the night involved me listening to someone’s issues…. Not a totally bad thing .. just a bar isn’t a good place to have heart to hearts ……. Overall this night was at least a 7… it was well spent with lots of friends, drinks and laughs…. Bravaaa

Anyway … I get to start my new contract this week and hopefully get a feel for what I’m in for…

We shall speak again,,,,

Jo-Jo

2003-05-12T16:28:00.000-07:00

Well I hope that the forces of nature are back to normal after a weekend like that…. I really cannot say that it was all that bad but just some uncanny things occurred but as soon as I woke up this morning I seemed to be right on track…. Kinda like I fell off for the weekend…. Strange.

Anyone got a tissue???

Well the spring is here that’s for sure…. Know how I know?.....

Hay Fever - a form of seasonal rhinitis caused by an allergy to pollens. Its symptoms are intense seizures of sneezing; inflammation of nose and eye membranes; and wheezing. Hay fever occurs annually at the same season. It is a reaction to inhalation of airborne pollens to which an individual is sensitive. Persons with a family history of hay fever may inherit a tendency to react, not to specific allergens, but to those to which they are exposed.

Ya….. did you ever feel your nose run down your face … well that’s me….. Oh am I ever excited over this one. See, every year I get to wait and see if I end up suffering or not. I get seasonal allergies but some years I don’t get them…. I guess it all depends on how much pollen is thrown around… I guess there might be a bit this year anyway…. I’m totally miserable. … . can’t breathe, taste, or smell, I got itchy eyes and dry throat…. Isn’t this nice … lovely spring…. . Will the seasons stop tormenting me… this is not a good time of year… I fear all plants and trees … and I bought my mother some flowers for mother’s day and found a few I also liked…. Well I must say they are causing me much grief even though I love them (flower fanatic here).

I shall never win this battle with “Me” VS “Mother nature”

…… What … you don’t think I would win? …. Its worth a shot…

later,

Jo-Jo

2003-05-10T14:38:00.000-07:00

Just a Quick thought....

You're most like the ArchAngel of
Defense. You like to hit things, and you like
naked people, preferably cute naked people. A
real down-to-earth angel who likes frogs and is
easily distracted by bright, shiny things.

But never loose your head.
find out who your like...Quizilla

Later,

Josephine

2003-05-09T12:25:00.000-07:00

Steve rules... enough said.

2003-05-09T08:43:00.000-07:00

I have met the most unbelievable people in my lifetime....

All I can say is wow ... I got a letter in the mail today.... Yes ... actual snail mail .. And that is why I really have to talk about the memorable people of my life, the people I don't think I could ever forget... well ... now I wont.. they are in no particular order. ... O.K.

My Mom ... who taught me what was right and wrong but let me choose. Showed me music, friendship, kindness, and truth. She makes me who I am.

Brenda ... My best friend.... The coolest person I ever met or ever will meet ... she’s definitely part of my family by now... and also an awesome mother of my godson Bailey... ( Brenda's going to have her hands full ) ..

Alex ... he definitely taught me about life... he was a good companion and was there when you needed him... he will always be a dear friend...

My Brother Mike.... He is definitely like my mentor... he tries soooo hard to teach me everything... he one of the most intellectual person I have ever met in my entire life... He my push ... he makes me want to learn... write on.

Abdul... now this guy is amazing... he taught me that its a big world out there... he’s my inspiration for my goal....

Nicole .... she makes me feel young.... she has so much energy.... she is definatly fun as hell.... rock on.... pie.. ;o)

Shawn and Bob....these guys taught me friendship, humor and just damn good times... :o)

Laurelle .... my cousin and also a best friend... she taught me about family and trust and truth.... MOOOOOOOOOOSE. ;o)..

Lawson ... he wont believe this anyway .. but yes .... he taught me music ..... he kind of never lets it fade away... if you know what I mean.

Natasha ..... almost unexplainable..... she taught me individuality.... i thought i was original,,,, until i met her... i will have a whole blog about her.... " And yes Natasha I love you and the babe..." ..

Alicia ... she help me with my outgoingness (if that’s even a word ... now it is) ... she has no inhibitions and is blunt as they come... she would say anything .... and crack you up!... man... .. luv ya girl .

Steve ..... He taught me to laugh ... he is the perfect blend of humor with intelligence .... nothing,,, and I mean nothing is boring when Steve is around… he makes it somewhat magical... coolest guy I know

Tory …. She taught me the strength of a friendship and dedication for achievement …. She is a role model and a superb individual…. She will always be in my heart and in my thoughts …. I wish the best in life for her…

Yet …. He was another mentor of mine…. Both in both professional and friendship…. He had the most unbelievable personality and he just glowed… he was a motivator and friend to everyone… .. you just wanted to be around him … he just made everything good …

Darryl... This is my ambition for everything I ever wanted to achieve... he gives me a sence of direction... always dear to my heart.

Greg ... Mon confidant.... definately ... Grego is a god sent for me... excellent listener with a heart of gold.... definate best friend material.

Well that’s about all for now but I know I will be adding more to this list as it goes on….

Thanks…..

Sincerely,

Josephine

2003-05-09T03:25:00.000-07:00

Anyone got change for a forty???.....

2003-05-08T18:02:00.000-07:00

Just a thought in the dark........

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

so there,

Jo-Jo

2003-05-08T01:02:00.000-07:00

*Just a quick forenote..... A friend of mind is helping me with the web counter and the comment section in my blog so I just wanted to thank Steve for the work he will do here. (He has the best blog ever) ******* I'm not worthy, I'm not worthy.... ok now that that is out of my system ..... *sings* "AND NOW.... BACK TO THE SHOW" :o)

Music for the soul...

I have always had music in my life.... my mom told me that I sang before I learned to walk. She used to tell me stories of when I was young (that damn memory thing) .... I was quite a performer when I was a kid *grins* oh yaa.... we entertained everyone ... and I mean everyone.... Dammit, I would even go to the doctors and no matter how sick I was all he would have to do was ask me to sing and I would be up on the desk belting out my rendishion of "Out on the Mira" (ohhhhh ya ... the old classics or the cape breton tunes were what I was raised on)

Well, I have been singing for at least 22 out of the 24 years of my life and have quite a history (maybe someday I might get into it). Now that I'm older now I look back and constantly ask myself.... WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED ????? All I can remember is one day on stage singing with my mother and aunt or anyone for that matter then somewhere along the way everything was gone.... No talent shows,,,,, No recording.... man .. not even for the seniors (which I enjoyed emensly) ... Sooooo .. what am I going to do about it you ask... Keep on Keepin on. I haven't really strayed that far from the music scene. I ran a Karaoke for a while at a local bar here and had a fantastic time... I get the best talent in our town to my Karaoke...We had Lawson, Steve, Mickey, Robert, Roberta and a slew of people that would come from different parts to sing.... *joy* But alas... I needed a real job and had to give it all up.... I continued to go to the limited musical functions here but I crave it so much these little fixes surely wont last.

Once my mother taught me the basic chords on the guitar I was well on my way to a passion. I pretty much taught myself the rest and picked up whatever I could from whoever would show me stuff. Between Eric Clapton and John Mayer ..( Dammit it took me near 5 years to learn "Tears in Heaven" but I got it .. *smile*).... I will never stop learning.... they couldn't pay me enough... Music is a way to the soul... People are nothing but honest in their songs ... really, .. people write about what they know .... It can show you alot about a person just by their songs. I guess thats why I have the stupid habbit of analyzing everything..... life could be like a song... maybe.

My mother, herself, is an amazing singer/songwritter and has hundreds of old classic songs that she had written, some sad,, some funny but they are all hers. When I was 10 (one of my earliest memories) we recoded at a local recording studio with a few other talents including the Newfoundland style band "Country Maple" and the impecable "Basil Penny". We had the opportunity to record 2 of my mothers songs and to me was a fantastic opportunity that I was very proud of and always will be.... I sang my mothers song and did it proud..... *grin*

So, I really miss the music. The old kitchen parties when I was a kid and the foot stoppen, fiddle playing good times at my house. But now that people are getting old and passing on everything seemed to come to a complete stop... absolutely nothingness ... This isn't good... The only other person I get to enjoy music with is Lawson. Lawson is an amazing artist and has a fantastic ear for talent... He introduced me to alot of music that I absolutly fell in love with. We rarely get to have a group of people together in one spot all in the mood for music. It usually ends up with people either getting too drunk to keep on or the mood just dies off....... MUST GET MUSIC BACK..... :'(

I think I am now on a mission.... A mission for music... I must get a pose together and create the best music to come from this Island ... dammit or I will die trying ... well maybe not that harsh ... I might just kinda feel bad ... but I will feel really bad... ya

so.... *yells* "OLLIE, OLLIE OXEN FREE" (Whatever the hell thats supposed to mean) but really though with all the talented musicians in the Cape....why can't I find any when I need them.... HEY....ya need to share some of that love... he he.... lets do an Island rendition of "we are family" or not .. lets just make some music.... :o)

well thats should be enough ranting... hopefully someone will get my point.. music for the soul... sometimes better the soup. (just something to think about)

just a note .... go out and learn to play something, I find people think just because they can't sing that they can't make music.... well thats sooooooooo wrong.... music makes the world go round.....along with a few minor things that goes along with it... but really though... just .. well... PLAY.

take care all,
Jo-Jo

2003-05-07T09:06:00.000-07:00

I'm learning HTML .... er ... ummm ... trying to that is.....

Just checking out a new hobbie

my blog :o)

lets try this

Nope .... didn't work .... will be back later to see if i can add some stuff..

WTF

2003-05-06T19:19:00.000-07:00

Pretty Happy Am I

Finally ... A little change in my boring life.... It’s about freaking time... My God..... Do you know how hard it is just to do pretty much nothing for months on end.... IM LOSING BRAIN CELLS HERE.... he he

So I have decided to make the move and I am meeting with the manager in the morning to talk about my position and details of the job. So ... that’s definitely something to look forward to. This is definitely going to get me into the learning mood since I'm going to be taking some training before I start. I have been thinking about going back to school in September. To me you can never learn enough but I really want to make sure that what I'm going to be going for is something that I really want to spend my life doing. ...... Well, I have been studying on my own for a while now and I absolutely love it. It feels like I'm finding my calling with what it is I enjoy doing. I spend a lot of my time online ( of course since I have 10 hours to fill a night so what else am I supposed to do. So I have been learning Arabic for about 5 months or so now and all that I really need to learn is more vocabulary and I think I will be ready to write a certification for that language. I want to be a language specialist and learn at least 10 languages so then once I know them there are just slang’s and variations of them for the other languages that are similar. So..... This was my plan for the fall......

1. Go to UCCB and take one of their language courses.... I'm thinking either French or Spanish first then move on to the others.
2. Take my BA correspondence so I can use my free time at work (for some reason that doesn’t sound right …. Might just be me) to do my BA.
3. Keep up with my harder languages on my own until I find a place to get certified (Arabic, Urdu, Farsi and others)

Along with this list I have so many other things that I want to do. …..It seems like I have all the time in the world but no time at all. For all the things that I want to do in the Fall how will I find time to do everything that needs to be done. ….. Who knows…. I might be able to be cloned by then … Wouldn’t that be great ,,,, Just a slew of Jo-Jo’s running around…… How scary that though was….. on to better things…..

I love this time of year…. Honestly I do…. Nothing do I find more relaxing and spirit lifting ( besides a chocolate milkshake … nothing beats that ) then the Spring time…. Everything seems to fall in place during the Spring…. Birds are chirping and the plants are growing … hell even the bugs look friendly this time of year… and defiantly after the winter we just had who wouldn’t be happy to see the sun … :o)

CHEERS to the SUN …… I’m a reformed morning person …. Sweet Deal ….

*singing* “I can see clearly now the snow is gone” Thank God for that one … I didn’t know how much I could handle…

later all,
Jo-Jo

2003-05-06T06:35:00.000-07:00

*newer blog is after this one...... I may figure out why this is happening but who knows..... just scroll down...

I just have to remind myself that the second blog i wrote on the 5th somehow came after the one before this.... If you can understand that then you definately should be here.

Anyway, I just wanted to have a quick blog right now.... I'M SO HAPPY :o) ... Its soo great.. let me tell you......I work backshift at work and had for about 7 months if not longer. I'm kinda looking for something new. So I guess I have been complaining to myself recently about how boring things have been and how much I needed change in my life.... Well, it finally came.... I found out through the grapevine at work that they are looking for someone on our contract, in my position ( 8 of us on my contract... overstaffed for the call volume ) to work with another contract. Now, I have experience in all contracts except this one. I was trained, kinda, in it about 1 month ago and didn't use it yet so I pretty much forgotten everything I was taught. So, I was asked if I wanted to go down.. .... hmmmm..... I'm not sure??? So of course I had many many questions before I go down..... she answered most of them ... to my benefit (not losing anything I have in my current contract) To me ... this is nothing but benificial for my knowledge... and keeping me busy. I will get to work with the people I first started working with. I missed them,,, we had alot of fun. :o) Sooooo ... after much contemplation........ I'm going .. and I'm pretty happy about it too .. *smiling*

I will be back later to jabber some more in a bit,,,, till then.... "I want everyone to make someone smile, not just smile laugh,, cause everyone would probably enjoy a good smile and laugh today" ,,, its just that kinda day...

later,
Jo-Jo

* for some reason this blog thinks that if i write twice in one day that it wants to keep my old one first...... scroll down to see the one after this..... silly little blog.....

2003-05-05T11:58:00.000-07:00

may 5

well I just lost a totally great blog .... but I'm not pissed off .... I will just know better next time ... SOS (save often stupid) ... alright I'm done.... let me try to gather up what I had written in the last and get it down again.

Alright... I have came to the conclusion that .... IM NOT A KID ANYMORE OK....let me explain ... Yesterday afternoon... two friends of mine, their kids and two cousins of one of my friends. (that was a mouthful ... he he) they invited me to go for a walk to the park with them just to pass the day,,, I was all excited "Oh boy a day at the park" ... I haven't been there in ages. Soo.... I threw on my track pants and off we went. Now let me tell you about the kids we had taken with us... one is extremely hyperactive (8) tiny for her age tall but small ..... the others are typical 8 and 9 year olds (sisters) ... the other two is 2 and the other 16 months ..... the two adults are around my age 23 and 27. Soo we pretty much carry on the way up to the park which is a 20 minute walk from where we live... so we finally get there ... what a time we had .... kind of like the John Mayer song '83 , In it he wishes he was 6 again and boy was I. We swung on swings, messed on monkey bars, the slides were entertaining and we had a blast at the fire man poles. The whole day was entertaining with the kids around and how young I felt...... by the time we got home ... about 4 hours later.... it was time to wind down but we wanted to play basketball and double dutch ... we were ready to go ...... Or so we thought. We pretty much ended they day by the time we got home from the park and I continued cleaning up a bit ,, doing some laundry and went out later that night. So ... I woke up this morning and I'm lucky I can move a little... I feel like one big knot..... stiff shoulders??? ...sore back.... hips that don't want to move when I tell them???... legs that ache???? So I started asking myself ......WHY THE HELL AM I SO SORE???....err ha ha ya ..forgot oops.... IM NOT A KID ANYMORE ... I can't swing on swings!, mess on monkey bars!, or slide down slides!.. and the fire man pole ,, you have to be joking!!! So .... I'm out of shape.... gotta get moving.... hell this summer I'm gonna get a new me... or so I say.

I feel like I'm a 10 year old with the knowledge of a 24 year old .... how ? umm???? ... FUN!!! :o)

well,,,, IM OFF TO MAKE A PLAN TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD ..... err ..I mean gather my thoughts ... he he

Jo-Jo

2003-05-04T22:16:00.000-07:00

Did you ever just wanna be loved.... I know its an indirect question but did you ever just want to be held and talked with with no sexual desire at all. Just the cuddle thing. I'm soooo sick of dead end relationships and causal flings. It's just not what I'm looking for. I need the cuddling I need the romance. I guess its just been getting crazy lately. I never seem to get my way and I just can't figure out what the hell I'm looking for... well I guess thats why I'm here .... to help me figure out what road to take and what experiences come out of it.

I have to say that I miss my friends.... sure I have alot of friends but I miss my good friends, the ones that we can just sit and talk for hours. Laughing uncontrolably was always a fond memory of mine and one I tend to bring up alot. All the memories I have (which are few because I cannot remember anything in detail before high school, thats just an agravating part of my life.... because of this I have a problem with people leaving my life because in my mind I know that if they are gone for too long I will have forgotten them. This always scares the hell out of me for the reasons that I need to remember every detail of everything and if someone goes away im crushed. .............. just a short story................

I remember when I first started working at my current employment..... When I started there I had no knowledge of my job and was taught everything I know by people that came from other sites to help prepare us for the launch of our local site. Among these were many amazing people (i couldn't say enough) and they took us and taught us everything they knew to make us the best.... I was very stressed out nearing the launch of the contract which means that I would start taking calls. To me, I knew nothing, I was scared to death but there was one special person that showed me that it was'nt so bad and actuall got me excited about my job because of his enthusiasm and dedication in his work. He was definately a role model for me in deciding where I wanted to go within this company. The time came (about 2 months) when the people that became mentors to us had to leave and leave us to our own demise. This was very upsetting to me because the person that showed me that "Its not that bad" was leaving me to go on my own. .... kinda like the baby bird and the nest theory...... Anyway, I cried when he left but I explained to him why and he understood. Time passed and we kept in contact through different means. The time came when he came back, this happened a few times and I found it easier letting him go but the last time wasn't like the rest. He came down and we all became really close. We seen eachother everyday and talked for hours. We hung out and had a great time. This time when it was time to go it wasn't well. I broke down in a local bar the time it was time to say goodbye. I was very upset. We kept in contact and called eachother. He sent me a video of a motivational speaking seminar he did. .... Anyway... I will never see him again because he is gone now.... but I keep him close to me so I will never forget what he meant to me... whether he knew it, I did and this I will always have to remember. .... this is for my memory of Yet Woo Loo

So ... I must say I'm a little emotional lately. I just can't seem to help it. It seems like its acutally a natural thing for me now.. that can't be right... me.... caring about stuff like it mattered. See I have always been the person that nothing bothered. You could say or do anything and I would barely react because I though "hey, thats your business", but recently I have seen myself getting erked by more things but then when I sit back and thing about why they bothered me it didn't make sense. I guess that just part of aging. lol . I think I just need a good nights sleep and a nice cry. ;)

g'night,

I feel like a Josephine tonite

"he he"

2003-05-04T17:06:00.000-07:00

Well ... getting older always gets me thinking ... I just turned 24 on the 28th of April. As I sit back everything gets all jumbled up. I try to remember people coming in and out of my life over at least 20 years. Why have I stopped thinking about them ,, then why do I start again. There have been so many people pass away in my life its like im living in a funeral home. I was the youngest grandchild so i see all my aunts and uncles pass away.... kinda creepy when i think about it cause death to me is a normal part of my life. Other things are relationships. I can't seem to get that one down. I'm not good at picking out the compatable ones. Just my thing, but I can't say it has worked out up until now.

I have so many things that I want to do with my life that I'm trying to find time to fit it all in. I want so much out of life but I also want to do so much. I guess leave my mark so to say. I just wanted to be one of those people that they still talk about long after I'm gone. Kinda way out there but its a goal none the less.

Will be back later,

Jo-Jo

2003-05-01T02:22:00.000-07:00

Well,,,, I must say I have alot to say..... it seems that recently I have been trying to discover myself. Somewhere along the way I'm guessing I got lost.

There are just sooo many questions I have about life and how it works. When people say that the world works in mysterious ways that was a total understatement.

I have caught myself having an issue with jumping around conversations. Its something that I has become a habit of mine that I haven't really knew about until I was assured that I was doing it. There are soo many things in life that people do and do not even realize what they do.

I have been talking with alot of my friends lately and it seems that everyone is going through the same phase, "what now" type of thing. The career choices, the moving on to what next and the inevidable ... pregnacy. I have a very good friend, Tasha, who is 6 months pregnant and going through a rough time. She is on leave before she has the baby so she has tons of time on her hands to think too much. Well, I was talking with her tonite and she was concerned about the choices she made and how she is going to cope with being a young mom and still a kid at heart. No I really can't say that I have alot of experience with pregnant women cause it seems that I have an issue with coping with friends who are pregnant. Now don't get me wrong, I love them more than anything but I have a hard time dealing with that sort of thing since i don't have much experience with kids and I have none myself. Soo I tried to give the best possible advice I could to her but I mostly listened. I recently had a pregnancy scare myself (which i will never go through again even if it comes down to me in a chastity) and I have to say it was one of the most stressful moments of my entire life not to mention I'm totally not ready what so ever. But,,,, fortunately,,,, I'm not with child so I can completely start new.. and I guess thats where my problems start.

I have to say I can sit back and think for hours. Nothing to me is more enjoyable then a great conversation with intelligent people, laughing till you pee and of course sitting back and letting your mind go. Its hard to handle sometimes because you can come up with some pretty crazy stuff when you sit down and think really hard (i feel like pooh bear). Here is an example of one of my super ideas.

picture this...... I called it my "SUPER HYDRATING WEIGHT LOSS SUIT" (oh yes thats right) ......

im not going to get into details but it has to do with a wet suit, a hydrating pack, and a body cooling system........

aren't I the little Red Green :0)

ya well thats just one of hundreds of crazy ideas......

I wonder what next alot... Like " What else really is there to come up with" or is it going to be all just bettering things. Is there really anything left to invent.... what else do we NEED. Thats a total understatement ... NEED ... Ya like everyone needs one of those dryer bags that keeps all your underwear together ... do people really loose that sort of stuff that often that they need a bag to keep it in while drying cause the dryer thinks that it needs it more then you do. I think not.... we have become the most LAZIEST culture on the face of the earth and will become more and more lazy until there is nothing left but us fat people sitting around moving our mouths but we probably wouldn't need to do that either....Isn't technology just the best. ( I dont think it would win my vote )

I guess the spring is here... but Winter definatly is trying to stay in the picture... only on this God forsaken island will you have 3 seasons a day and the weather man cringing at trying to tell us what the day will be like. It seems that this time of year I start and weigh out my life and what I need to do. Well the scales are out and it should be interesting.

I will be back sooner than the last time,,, Its just that time of year.....

Damn you Albert! Now everyone wants to be like you.......

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-04-02T01:13:00.000-08:00

HELLLLLO.... Well while I get to sit here for hours on end and do nothing I might has well blog for a bit. I just want to express my enjoyment of working a backshift. See, I'm a mentor in my work place but in lamen terms I get to sit on a phone and wait for someone that needs help. Well...........at 4 am there isn't any call volume at all so while they wait to help I do also.... so right now its 2:40am and I'm not expecting another call until around 8:30 am right before i get to go home. As you probably already know I get to have hours of free time to .... umm.... well..... blog I guess.

My lunch was at 1am till 2am this morning and what choices do we have tointe for our menu ..........hmmm let me see.... Tim Hortons for their non stocked shelves (for some reason they love to dump everything right before we get there) or an all time famous choice NEEDS. So anyway, me and a fellow co worker who has the same luch as I do decide to venture out of our lovely building and wa lk down the road at 1am to try and find something half decent to eat. This is what we achieved in getting:

For beginners-
medium hot chocolate with milk
2 chocolate chip cookies and a chocolate chip muffin (for later)

we spent 15 minutes in Needs ...... I ended up with.....
1 bag sunflower seeds
1 bottle of Ocean Spray OJ (drink of champions)
and a meat and cheese thing ........ let me explain

in a package there is 1 piece of processes mozzarella cheese and 1 piece of peperonni.......
I have to admit this was a taste experience that I will never put myself through ever again.
It was the most overpowering flavor that I ever tasted and I really can't say that it tasted anything like peperonni or mozzarella. :| I think I need to write a letter.

Anyway ........ I sat here thinking about how music affects a persons mood..... and how it can change how you feel in a turn of a dime..... recently I have been listening to David Usher, John Mayer and Eminem quite often..... They just reflect upon me and how im feeling..... I like to associate certain songs to certain events and when I end up hearing that song again the memories flood back... sometimes good, sometimes not so good.

I LOVE YOU JOHN MAYER

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-03-31T23:56:00.000-08:00

Well I must say it was, overall, a fantastic weekend. Well rounded and full of interesting times. Friday night I was honored to spend with alot of friends that I haven't had spent time with in months so to me it was an added bonus. It started out with music and fun times. Drinking lots of alcohol and saying alot of stupid drunken stuff (what would have been better???). One of the local bars around here remained open for an extra hour this weekend because of a traditional hockey tournament here called the "Vince Ryan". It raises alot of money each year for young hockey players and scholerships and stuff, its quite a big event here. So, after going to one of other local bars here for some good dancing I staggared over to the Main Event where "Patty Murphy" with singer "Rober Barrie". I have to admit, I haven't been that entertained in a very, very long time. They played the most unlikly yet fantastic songs, they really kept you either dancing on the dance floor or on the edge of your seats looking forward to the next song. Next thing I know Robert is inviting a good friend of mine "Steve" on the stage to do a fantastic rendition of " Road House Blues ", It was quite a show. Steve had the crowd at his finger tips. Lawson, Steves best friend, took lots of pictures that I will have to get copies of.

Saturday was suposed to be a quiet night. My plans were going to be just sitting around watching some movies with my brother but it turned out into another fantastic evening. I ended up meeting up with an old friend and we both got to enjoy the second rendition of "Patty Murphy" with singer "Robert Barrie" who I must say did an even better job then the previous night. I knew that in the back of my head that I had to meet this "Robert Barrie" guy. I have been reading his blog for a while now. (recomended from steves blog) And I was well impressed with the good writing style of his. So anyway.... 3am hits and I danced and sang along all night. Right from the beginning I wanted to meet him but I thought if I left it till the end of the night I would either chicken out or go right up to him and introduce myself. Well that is what i sure did... right at 3am I sauntered right up the the stage and drunkenly introduced myself to that amazing musician (im sure I sounded like an drunk idiot). That was a total achievement for me. Any other time i would have just turned around, too shy to introduce myself so I guess I have my accomplishment for the weekend. Well Thats all I wanted to chatter about today.

Im still trying to search for some good saying by Adam Sandler but oh well I will just leave you with......

"Do it for MAMA"

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-03-27T15:40:00.000-08:00

Well I guess I must have a lot to talk about. So much has went on since I last blogged in here. Well, first thing is first, the war has started. I don't really feel like talking about that one cause I can't really say I understand really what seems to be going on. It all seems so pointless to me. But anyway that is something that hit me home. I have a very good friend that is right in the heart of Kuwait City and is waiting for the war to be over so he can come back here with us. So, I say the war should end. Do you hear me, all over. No more war. If only it were that easy. Another thing that is going on is the new SARS (severe acute respiratory syndrome). It hit in Asia and there are 2 deaths in Canada so far. It hit in Ontario. I sometimes think im a hypochondriac. Whatever is going around I think I have it. But as always, it passes. So, of course I'm now getting sick and subconciously I think I'm getting the SARS.

Well, I guess I can say that I am a pretty happy person. Not much can bring me down and when it does it doesn't take me long to get back up again. I like to think of my life as a total sitcom. Things happen because they do and if you go into them too much it just ruins it. I like to play my roll as a semi-comedian with a fun loving personality. I like to sit back and take a look at all the different ways that people cope with the same situations. It amuses me to find that if you put 2 people in the same situation and watch how they both handle it differently. I guess its just some person amusment but it also makes me look at the way I react to situations myself. I take things with a grain of salt. I don't let them bother me or get to me for a long period of time. thank goodness.

Anyway back onto a better subject. I want to talk about a friend of mine and how great he is. He doen't believe how good he is so I want to show you all. His name is Steve and he has his own blog. He is who inspired me to start one of my own. While mine is just in the beginning stages his is well on its way (which doesn't surprise me). When I need intelligent conversation there he is, right there to take me in. http://stevesthoughtfulspot.blogspot.com/ This is the link to his blog. I want everyone to at least stop by and give it a go. I visit there everyday and it keeps me up to date on whats going on in the "wonderful life of Steve". He's an amazing person with an amazing mind. He is a movie buff and has a memory like you wouldn't believe. Steve definatly inspires me in many different ways but he doesn't realise how important his thoughts and views are to me and everyone else. He is level headed and can make you laugh to kill yourself. I just wanted to ramble on about him cause i think so highly.

I have so much I want to write about that I will take my time and sort through my thoughts. I will probably blog again tomorrow and let you know how my weekend is started. I always look forward to a night out and when we all get together strange and unusually things usually happen.

Who knows...... It may be an interesting one.

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-03-06T01:52:00.000-08:00

Hello again
I guess its been a while since I wrote in here. Been kinda busy with all this back to work goodness. See, I was off work since December 13, 2002 and just returned back on Feb. 24, 2003. I was on a medical leave from my wonderful job because of the stupidity of an aquaintance of mine. I was hit by a car in front of my own house by one of my own friends (or so called I guess). Now that I'm getting back to normal and digging my way out of the rutt i was in I have found some time to sit back and blog a little.

I have come to accept my extreem open mindedness. Yes, thats right, extreem is the word I used. To each his own I say and why should I really care about what happens if it doesn't reflect upon myself or those I love. Some might say I don't care but thats not totally correct. I do care, sometimes too much, its just that if i let it interfere with my day to day life all I will have time to do is think about what is going on.

I like to take a look at all the things that are going on in the world then listen to alot of the people go on about how crappy their lives are. Oh, please spare me. Your complaining that you didn't get pizza at work when they bought it for everyone, that you can't afford a new outfit for the weekend. Come on, like the world would end if you have to wear the same outfit out that you wore a week previous. To me this is very petty and makes no sense at all. Don't get me wrong. I get upset if things don't go my way either but at least I take the time to think about everything else. Like war in Iraq or the AIDS epidemic in Africa. I don't play on it but I rarely get upset over the little things in life and rarely take anything for granted. I respect all that I wish respect in return from. I just don't see using and abusing as a good move on anyones part if they want to get somewhere in the world today.

I have to admit. I used to be very shallow and thought that everything must have a place and if it doesn't then follow something else. Now i believe that everything happens for a reason so look more into meaning and detail. I can't say I am where I want to be at this stage in my life but I'm definately on the right track.

"Never take away anyone's hope. That may be all they have."
-Unknown

later,
Josephine

2003-02-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

Well,,,, I have to admit it has been an overall sad day. Just to fill you in a little. I have become very close friends with a few special individuals. Some guys from Kuwait that are going to school here met up with me last year and we became instant friends. I introduced one of them to my best friend Brenda and she has been with him for almost a year. I dated one of them for 7 months, then it ended in a pretty bad way where I can't even stand to be around him. But anyway, Brenda's boyfriend was always a good friend of mine and I see him as one of my best friends.

Brenda called me around 10 this morning and was very upset. She told me that Abdul failed his make up test and was dismissed today and will be going back to Kuwait. Now, just wait a sec, this can't be true. Not Abdulla, why not Ahmed. Dammit. Anyway, I spent the majority of the day trying to think of things with Brenda and later on this afternoon Abdul decided to come to see her. I personally thought that they needed time alone to talk and just figure out what will happen now. I have to admit that they have the most insane relationship I have ever seen but they are just made for eachother. Around 8:30 this evening there was a knock at my door. This is unusual because most people that come to my house just walk right in. Here it was my ex Ahmed. I'm totally thrown off by this visit but knew right off that he must be here for a reason. He is talking like things never changed and like we were best friends in the world. He was talking and I pretty much asked what he wanted. He called me the previous night asking about a project I was helping 2 of the Arabic guys. Little did he understand but they were friends and they asked me to help them but he came along and decided actually assumed I would also do his. Boy, that was the biggest insult I think I have ever had. I hate him more then life itself and he has the gall to ask me to help him out. Well, I told him that I would think about it and let him know tomorrow. Little does he know that he acutally doesn't want me to do it cause I would intentionally fuss it up and not care in the least. he should be the one sent back not Abdul. Well when he calls tomorrow I'm going to set him straight. GO F@#!k YOURSELF!!!!!! Hell no I'm not helping him out. I couldn't care less if he needed help.

Anyway that was my venting for the day.

payback is a bitch but hey most women are anyway so just enjoy it ;)

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-02-14T00:53:00.000-08:00

HAPPY ST. VALENTINES DAY ...... err .... whatever

I have become to detest St. Valentine and all it has to offer. Now don't get me wrong, the intention is good but he is definately a shit disturber. Think about it this way. You are now, if in a relationship, awating that special somthing from that special someone. Now come on, as my friend Steve says, if your in such a meaningful relationship how come there needs to be a day set asid for all this love. I'm sorry but i personally think that everday is special and can be made special and if you need a day put aside once a year just to make it wonderful.... get a life. Love is love and to make a day out of it is totally comertializing the last thing left. They ruined Christmas, easter and every other holiday out there and now we have the comertials like " Don't you think your loved one will love you more if you bought them a DVD player " oh please.... dont make me throw up. I personally love St. Valentines and even more when im single. Then, I only truly get to enjoy everyone I love in the way i see fit. So what am I going to do about all this over commercialization, nothing really, declare shinanigans and get on with my life. ;) What better way to say I love you the to say " I love you " and smile. :)

I just felt like talking about love tonite. I was talking to my best friend Brenda and we were talking about everyone we know that are going to be having babies in the upcoming few months. I was totally blown away with the amout of new lives coming into the world. See, I'm the god mother of my best friends (Brenda) son. I think i am one of the only girls left that I used to hang aroud with in college that does not have children, nor want children anytime soon. To me, children are great if I get to return them to their owners soon after bonding with them. I love kids and they are so fun to play with but I have such a respect for single mothers (or fathers) that have to do this "parenting" thing alone. Man, what a tough job. I know that I'm personally not ready for kids and don't think that I will be ready anytime soon, but all those who were thrown into the responsibility of parenting either by accident or by choice I totally commend them, for this is a job that does not come easy. I have come to the conclusion that during the winter what do people have better to do then, well of course, reproduce. And I find it more amazing seeing all the "girls" that i grew up with haveing little girls or boys of their own. To me, this is amazing. Something I really never thought of when I was young. I personally was too busy with barbies and TV. Now that I get to see all these new generation kids its totally cool. Who needs kids of your own when everyone else lets you play with theirs :)

Maybe someday I will settle down but not anytime soon thats for sure. I want to do too much. I procrastinate all the time about places I want to visit and things I want to learn. But how would i ever be able to achieve this with a kid. I couldn't, no way. So thats why I respect everyone with children. You guys rock.

Here's to the new found law of " If your gonna be with me you better not have an allergy to latex " :)

anyway off to bed I go and HAPPY LOVE DAY TO ALL (just make sure you tell them you love them before its too late, anything can happen out of the blue)

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-02-13T00:22:00.000-08:00

Well, I was just puttering around my favorites today (we all know how messy they can get) and i came across a website that I really haven't visited in quite a long time. See, when you have too much free time on your hands there is only so much you can do so many times. Well anyway, I went to this website and there was an area dedicated to " The ART of annoying people". Now, I really didn't think that annoying people could be an art really until I actually started reading. http://www.pressanykey.com/cgi-bin/cgiwrap/pak/annoy.cgi.

So as I read I really started thinking. "Can this really be so hard that you need ideas on how to do it"?. YES.... I agree 100% that if you are going to be a total jerk and dedicate your time an energy into annoying someone you should really know how to do it. As I read, I laughed, I laughed hard because alot of these I really couldn't picture doing, or actually having them done to. Incase you have no idea what im talking about I will give an example. Lets take number one (This is only number 1 of 95 things you could do just to annoy people, they are too kind in deviding them into about 15 different categories so that you can be annoying in pretty much everything you do. Ohh how kind they are)

anyway, number 1 is :
Adjust the tint on your tv so that all the people are green, and insist to others that you "like it that way". (the way i see it is that it would probably make TV look better and it wouldn't bother me in the least what color people are, but, as we all know, there are just some people out there that thrive on perfection when it comes to TV and I find this quite comical. See as you get to know me you will notice that I have declaired shinanigans on television and what it has to offer. But I will definatly log this fun tip away for future use.

Sometimes I think that when you do get that not so common person, that no matter what they say, just sends that erked out feeling right through you everytime they speak that they either are doing it on purpose or haven't go a single clue on how to communicate normally. This has been a question I have asked myself a million times over and just cannot explain. So if anyone that is annoying or that knows an annoying person how about giving me some kind of answer to why they hell they are the way they are. Not saying that these people are bad, or that they cannot justify the way they are but I really just want to know what the hell really goes through their mind when they do somethings like " Put decaf in the coffeemaker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over caffeine addictions--switch to espresso!" come on, what really are they thinking.

Anywho :P (another annoying statement, somthing like "fugly" :S really now) I just wanted to know what annoying people think and do they actually know they are annoying and are trying to piss us off or if they just dont know anybetter. So if any of you are annoying people and would like to fill me on your method to maddness just drop me a line. Its kinda like the cadbury secret for me. I guess I may never find out.

just keep doing what your doing. And if not, just fake it ;)

try this one (Name all of your pens and insist that meetings can't begin until they are all present. )
if you can't beat 'em, join 'em.

later,
Jo-Jo

2003-02-11T21:50:00.000-08:00

Well..... This is the beginning I guess. I have been an avid blog reader of a very good friend of mine and he told me that I should start one myslef. Well here I am !! I'm going to write this for myself and those who would like to read are more then welcome.

I guess I will start with a little history of myself. I was born April 28, 1979. My real name is Josephine but I have been called Jo-Jo since I was a week old. Its pretty uncanny how the name stuck the way it has. My god mother looked at me and said " She isn't a Josephine, she's a little Jo-Jo". Boy, if she only knew. I have to say that to me my name was Jo-Jo and calling me by anything else was insulting. I insisted on everyone calling me Jo-Jo, teachers, friends, even my mom.

I can't say that my childhood was a bad one but one that is definately in the past. Thank God !!! I wonldn't want to relive that stage in my life. I actually feel bad for kids these days. They may have cooler stuff then when I was a kid but they actually have no idea what they have ahead of them in this so called "real world". I'm assuming they will have as big a reality check as I went though. I personally never thought I would have to grow up. What was I thinking...... WRONG.

Now that im 23, (young to some, old to others) I really have to look at myself and think really hard about what I want to do in this life.....My life. I may only be 23 buy for all the things i procastinate about wanting to do, I think I will need another 2 liftimes to achieve them.

I have reciently gained a passion for languages and cultures. Never really thought that this could become such a passion of mine but here I am struggling to learn as many languages in as short a period as I can. See, I have this problem where I set out to do something, then either get lazy or bored somewhere along the way and drop it. But this is definately something im going to persue for a long time. I think

So, anyway, I'm 23, single and have an OK job. I like to describe myslef as a very perceptive person and really looks for the good in everything, but as we all know we are human and I do fluff up sometimes too. I work with an amazing group of people and like to think that I have created a special bond with alot of my co-workers. I know that your not supposed to mix business with pleasure but how are you really supposed to enjoy your job and get along with your co- workers if you don't know who you can really bitch about your job with. ;)

I guess I will leave it at that for now and in all hope will return frequently to tell more of my story.

later,
Jo-Jo